Posted on June 2, 2018 by Body. Booze. and Boys.
Ok so last night was a bit of a weird one… but overall fun. Following work, I went to the Trillium Beer Garden on the Greenway to meet up with two different groups of friends. My friend “Ike” was there and he insisted that include him in whatever blog post I write today… so hi Ike.
Following the beer garden, one of the groups went to another bar downtown and then to Felipe’s in Harvard Square, where we met up with Lucky.
He and I hadn’t really talked much since the last time I saw him after the baseball game, but I was glad to see him and I think we both were hoping to get some alone time… which of course didn’t happen.
See at that point people were still trying to do something so I was like “we can all go to my apartment”, not even thinking that would mess up my chances of booking up with Lucky. So a small group of us end up at my apartment and we drank a little and played LIFE (Yes, the game) until 4:00 in the morning. Shockingly I didn’t have any children and only bought one house. Lucky left with the other guys and idk if it was just me thinking it was awkward, but we didn’t even hug goodbye… sooo yeah.
Sooo maybe it doesn’t mean anything… but it seems like I might be subconsciously feeling guilty about wanting to hook up with Lucky again! What is that?!! As we all know, Coach and I are not exclusive and he has made no mention of a desire for us to be exclusive. And I keep going back and forth on if I’d even say yes if he asked. I mean… I think I might, but I’ve gotten so used to the freedom of not being in an exclusive relationship.
I had a long conversation about this whole not being exclusive thing with one of my best friends when he was visiting from DC. Anddddd while I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me wanting to “have my cake (Coach) and eat it too (others, including Lucky), I’m wondering if he has a point about not being able to maintain it.
Even my friend in Seattle just broke up with a guy she’d been seeing… not because she didn’t like him or enjoy spending time with him… but because she didn’t like him enough and didn’t see it going anywhere. Is that where I am with Coach?
If I am guilty, someone needs to offer me a plea deal fast!