And I could have just put my hands in the water and rinsed them, but instead, I licked my hands clean, because I was so afraid of losing more than I had already lost, and I was so desperate to make sure that he would always be a part of me.
물 속에 손을 넣어 씻어 버릴 수도 있었는데 대신 깨끗하게 핥아 먹었어요. 이미 잃은 것보다 더 잃어야 한다는 생각에 너무 두려웠고 그이가 제 일부가 됐으면 하는 바램이 너무 간절했으니까요.