Because I was afraid if I said everything that she meant to me -- that I owed perhaps the best parts of who I became to her care, and that the words "I'm sorry" were like a thimble to bail out all the guilt and shame and rage I felt over everything she had endured to care for me for as long as she had -- I thought if I said those words to her, I would never stop crying again.
pois achei que se dissesse tudo o que ela significava para mim... que eu devia talvez aos seus cuidados o melhor de quem me tornei, e que as palavras  "sinto muito" eram ínfimas para me livrar de toda a culpa,  vergonha e raiva que senti por tudo o que ela aturou  para cuidar de mim por tanto tempo... Achei que se dissesse isso a ela, jamais  conseguiria parar de chorar de novo,