Because I was afraid if I said everything that she meant to me -- that I owed perhaps the best parts of who I became to her care, and that the words "I'm sorry" were like a thimble to bail out all the guilt and shame and rage I felt over everything she had endured to care for me for as long as she had -- I thought if I said those words to her, I would never stop crying again.
Porque receava que, se lhe  dissesse quanto ela significava para mim. que devia talvez aos seus cuidados a melhor parte de quem sou, e que a palavra "Lamento" nunca seria suficiente para me libertar da culpa, da vergonha e da raiva que sentia por tudo o que ela tinha aguentado  ao cuidar de mim, durante tanto tempo, pensei que, se lhe dissesse estas palavras, eu nunca mais pararia de chorar.