And it was at that point that I began to think that it was just too painful to be alive, and that the only reason not to kill oneself was so as not to hurt other people.
Et c'était à ce moment-là  que j'ai commencé à croire que vivre faisait trop mal, et que la seule raison  de ne pas se suicider, c'était afin d'éviter  aux autres de souffrir.