And I was afraid, not for myself, but I was afraid that I was going to lose him, that he was going to sink into one of his states, and that I would ruin his relationship with the violin if I started talking about scales and arpeggios and other exciting forms of didactic violin pedagogy.
Et j'ai eu peur, pas pour moi, mais j'ai eu peur de le perdre, qu'il se mette à sombrer dans l'une de ses crises, et que je ruine sa relation avec le violon si je commençais à parler de portées et d'arpèges et des autres formes intéressantes de la pédagogie didactique du violon.