And I could have just put my hands in the water and rinsed them, but instead, I licked my hands clean, because I was so afraid of losing more than I had already lost, and I was so desperate to make sure that he would always be a part of me.
وكان يمكنني وضع يدي في الماء وشطفهم، لكنني عوضًا عن ذلك، لعقت يدي لأُنظفهم، لأنني كنت خائفة من فقدان المزيد مما فقدت، وكنت يائسة جدا للتأكد انه سيكون دائمًا جزء مني.