Maybe I wanted to be so successful and so able to take responsibility that I would do so and I would be able to take care of my attending's patients without even having to contact him.
ربما اردت ان اكون ناجحاً جداً وقادر على تحمل المسؤولية التي يمكنني ان اقوم بها ويمكنني ان ارعى نزلاء صاحب المشفى دون الرجوع اليه.