Previously on “The Secret Life of the American Teenager”

ADRIAN: I'm getting our things ready for the hospital.

BEN: Do you think that this... This could be it?

ADRIAN: Could be.

JEFF: Everything about Africa, it just makes me feel so alive. That's why I want to go back, Kathleen. Obviously I want you to come with me. Tom and Grace can come too. I mean, that's an amazing opportunity for them to see the world.

DR ATTAVI: Did you feel the baby move?

ADRIAN: No. But I'm thinking maybe she's just getting into position to, you know, make her way out.

DR ATTAVI: Let's see what's going on.

GEORGE: You tested out of high school?

TOBY: We were thinking about driving across America.

LEO: That was Ben.

CAMIEL: Is everything okay?

LEO: No, everything's not okay. I'll call you as soon as I know how serious this is, all right?

CAMIEL: I love you, Leo.

KATHLEEN:  Who is this woman with two children that wants to marry Tom? I mean, is she after his money or something?

ASHLEY: I don't want to be in a situation where I'm forced to run away from home. Let me do what I wanna do.

LEO: I've got some bad news for all of you. The baby passed away.

RICKY'S APARTMENT

Amy makes  stuff, Ricky wants to sleep with her.

AMY: Okay, okay, okay, stop it! John's in there.

RICKY: And?

AMY: And I have to get home and change, and shower and, uh, get him cleaned up and to the nursery and...

(John is here)

JOHN: Bye, bye, Mommy. Come, Mommy.

RICKY: Daddy will take you. Daddy will take you to the nursery.

(John leaves)

AMY: I can't believe we slept over here again.

RICKY: Why not? John likes sleeping over here. And so do you.

AMY: No, I love sleeping over here. That's why I plan to sleep over here all summer. But during the week, it makes the mornings a little crazy. Or crazier.

RICKY: And it makes the nights crazy too.

AMY: Yeah.

RICKY: You know it would be easier if you actually moved here. Brought the rest of your things and John's things. You're practically living here anyway. You're here all the time.

AMY: I'm not here all the time. Most of the time.

RICKY: For the past couple of months, most of the time.

AMY: Most of the time is not all of the time. There's a big difference. I don't know. Ashley is taking off with Toby today and...

RICKY: And you can't leave your dad for the father of your son?

AMY: Yeah, that doesn't sound right, does it?

RICKY: No, it doesn't. And you can't let him tell you that you have to stay there when he and your mom are letting Ashley travel cross-country with her boyfriend at 16.

AMY: Yeah. She is. But, I mean, she graduated from high school, technically. And she's too young to go to college, even if she could get in. My mom thinks that it will teach her the value of education, and that she'll learn more about the United States seeing it than reading about it.

RICKY: I can't believe they're buying that. It's better for two sixteen-year-old to drive across the country than go to school?

AMY: Well, not all sixteen-year-olds, just those two. I mean, maybe it sounds little crazy, but, hey, so are we. I mean, I'm a junior in high school and I'm actually thinking about the three of us living together. Me and my baby and the father of my baby. It's kind of surreal. I don't know. I feel as if we're playing house more than I feel that this is our house, and our family. I mean, if you want to make it our house and our family.

RICKY: I do. I want you and John to live here. The three of us together. It feels right. It feels good even. We've been talking about this long enough. Let's just do it. Move in.

AMY: All right, what we've been talking about is waiting until summer. Waiting until school is out and then moving in together.

RICKY: I know, but it just hasn't worked out that way. We're pretty much living together now. The three of us.

AMY: Okay.

RICKY: Now. Right now. Today.

AMY: I said okay! As of today, I live here. We live here. John and me and you.

RICKY: Are you going to say anything to your mom and dad? 'Cause if you say anything to either of them, you make a big announcement or something, it's not going to happen. You know that.

AMY: You can't really expect them to tell me that it's okay. Because it just wouldn't be right for two parents to tell their teenage daughter that she can live with her boyfriend.

RICKY: I think I'm a little more than a boyfriend.

AMY: Yeah, little more than a boyfriend and a little less than a husband. So, I don't think we're going to get their approval. But we do have a son and I do love you. And like you said, we've been practically living here for the past few months anyway. So...

RICKY: So, what's the hesitation about?

AMY: Just hope it doesn't seem insensitive to other people.

RICKY: Insensitive, how? To what other people?

AMY: Adrian is going through hell, and I'm not. I just feel a little guilty that things worked out so badly for them and not so badly for us.

RICKY: No, no, no. You can't not move in with me because you feel guilty about being happy, Amy. Whatever happens with Ben and Adrian happens. Whatever that is, it shouldn't affect us. I feel badly for both of them, but I'm happy for us. The three of us, we're a family.

AMY: Yeah, we are a family, aren't we?

RICKY: Yeah. We are, Amy. And I'm not going to let anyone change that. And I'm not going to do anything that would jeopardize that.

AMY: Yeah, I know that. Well, I will see you tonight, and I guess every night.

RICKY: Yeah, you will, Amy.

THE SECRET LIFE OF THE AMERICAN TEENAGER – OPEN CREDITS

CONDO

Ben is ready to go out, Adrian not.

BEN: You sure you don't want to go with me? Okay, well, there are just a few months left anyway, so, uh, next year.

ADRIAN: No, really, like I said, maybe I'll just take the GED, like Ashley.

BEN: The "good enough" diploma? That's not good enough for my wife. You and me, we're going to graduate together. If you don't want to go back to our high school, we can find another one.

ADRIAN: No. I decided I'll go with the GED or something. Okay, I don't know, I don't really care. Just tell Amy I said hello. Oh, and Grace, too. Well, if you see Grant, tell him to tell her.

BEN: She's going to be back in a week and she's going to want to see you. And Amy wants to see you right now, any time you'll let her come over here. Aren't you getting just a little tired of communicating through texts and emails? And don't you want to see your friends? Well, um, I'm going to go to school, and then I'm going to go to work, and then I'm going to go over to my dad's tonight for dinner after work.

ADRIAN: I know. You told me. Three times. It's okay. Just go have a good time. Try and have a good time.

BEN: I wish you'd go with me. I'll get dinner for you.

ADRIAN: It's okay. I'll order in.

BEN: Adrian...

ADRIAN: No. You do what you have to do, and I'm going to do what I have to do. And right now, this is what I have to do.

BEN: You don't have to. It's not going to do you any good or me any good. It's not going to bring her back, hiding here in the condo. It's not, Adrian. And it's been two months.

ADRIAN: She would have been eight weeks old today.

BEN: I know that. I know, Adrian. She was my daughter, too. I know how old she would have been. But... Adrian, I can't just lock myself away. I need to be around people. I need to stay busy with school or work, or be with my dad or with you, Adrian. Please, let's just go back to counseling. We can see someone other than Dr. Fields.

ADRIAN: But you like Dr. Fields, and he's probably the best person for you to talk to. It's just that, he was no help to me, and that's probably because there's nothing anyone can say that's going to make this okay. Nothing. BEN: I don't think the point is for it to be okay, or for us to get over it. The point is for us to live with it. You talked to Dr. Ottavi?

ADRIAN: About?

BEN: About maybe getting something that could help you feel better?

ADRIAN: Yeah, I know you called her. She told me. And I don't want any pills to make me feel better, all right? And by the way, she's not really my doctor. Her son is. So deal with it.

BEN: I just called her because she was the one that was here that day, and I just, I feel I know her better. I don't know what to do here.

ADRIAN: Just stop trying to do anything, okay? It's like I keep saying it but it's like you're not listening. You do what you need to do and I'm going to do what I need to do. And this, this is what I need to do. I need to stay home and watch the last year of  Oprah and eat whatever I feel like eating. I need to walk in the nursery and look in the baby's crib and imagine what she would look like, what she'd be wearing, what she'd be doing. That's what I need to do.

BEN: I don't think it's healthy hanging out in the nursery.

ADRIAN: What are you saying? I'm fat?

BEN: I'm saying you're beautiful. And I love you. I'll call you tonight, okay? See you.

ADRIAN'S HOUSE

Ruben talks with Cindy after her start.

RUBEN: I don't see why it's such a horrible idea. It would get her out of the house.

CINDY: First time out of the house would be to go to the baby's grave?

RUBEN: Maybe she needs that. To go there, to grieve. Maybe she needs to bring all that grief to the surface, you know? Let it all out.

CINDY: Run it by Dr. Fields. See what he says.

RUBEN: I don't care what he says. He really wasn't that much help.

CINDY: Well, that's because both you and Adrian decided that you don't want any help. I found the guy very helpful and so did Ben. You could have been more supportive of the family therapy, you know.

RUBEN: Why can't you help her?

CINDY: I tried, Ruben.

RUBEN: Well, try harder. She talked to you for the first couple of weeks. Maybe you said something that made her feel bad.

CINDY: No, I didn't. Did you say something that made her feel bad? Because she's not talking to you either.

RUBEN: I'm her father. You're her mother. This is a mother-daughter thing.

CINDY: You don't believe that. You just don't know what to say to her either.

RUBEN: No, I don't. I just want to make her feel better.

CINDY: Well, I don't think we can do that. We both want her to feel better but it's out of our control. And all we can do is just tell her that we love her and that we're there if she needs us. She just nee more time.

RUBEN: Time to do what? Sit at home and watch TV and stuff her face until she's more depressed?

CINDY: For now, yes.

RUBEN: And you're just going to go to work?

CINDY: I stayed home for a month. I took a month off. I worked hard so I could take a month off. So, I have to go to work.

RUBEN: You could quit.

CINDY: I'll see you at the end of the week. If you're still here. I'm not going anywhere.

RUBEN: It's my house, why would I go anywhere?

ADRIAN'S HOUSE/CONDO

Ruben calls her daughter.

ADRIAN(at phone): I told you, I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm fine, okay? Just leave me alone. I'm fine.

RUBEN(at phone): Can I bring lunch over today?

ADRIAN(at phone): No. Look, just please don't. I don't feel like having lunch with you. No offense.

RUBEN(at phone): None taken. But if you need me...

ADRIAN(at phone): Dad, I love you, but I don't need you. I need to be alone.

RUBEN(at phone): Okay, Adrian. Love you, too. Bye.

CONDO

Ben comes back.

BEN: I'm sorry about the way I left just now. It's just that I'm worried about you.

ADRIAN: Who called you? My mom?

BEN: She texted me. But I was on my way back in.

ADRIAN: I don't like everyone worrying about me. It's a burden. And I don't need the burden of everyone worrying about me on top of losing my baby.

BEN: Well, maybe, everyone wouldn't worry about you so much if you could just give us some indication that you're feeling any better...

ADRIAN: I don't want to feel better!

BEN: Okay, well, then we're right back to where we started, so I'll just say goodbye.

ADRIAN: Goodbye. Love you.

BEN: Love you, Adrian.

GRACE'S HOUSE

Tom talks with his mother before to go at work.

TOM: You're treating me like a baby.

KATHLEEN: Because I won't let your girlfriend, that I know nothing about, move into the guest house with you? Tom, she's on welfare, she has two children, and she's too old for you.

TOM: It's not about how old I am or how old she is. You think I'm not smart enough to be with a girl like her.

KATHLEEN: No, honey, that's not it. I think you're smart. I just, I don't think you think things through sometimes, and this is one of those times.

TOM: Think it through for me. Please. Go ahead.

KATHLEEN: Let's just say the two of you do end up getting married, and then she changes her mind and wants a divorce. She would get half your money, Tom. The money your birth mother left you, the money you've earned and saved. Half of that would be gone.

TOM: Then I have half my money left.

KATHLEEN: And she has the other half!

TOM: I'd say it, "It was worth it."

KATHLEEN: Tom, you would give half of all you have to this woman just to be close with her?

TOM: Yes! It's not about sex. We are not going to have sex.

KATHLEEN: You would wanna be with someone that didn't want to have sex with you?

TOM: I heard that happens a lot. Even right here in this house.

KATHLEEN: Because Jeff's not here. He's in Africa. He's working in Africa because that's what he wants to do, and I'm staying here because that's what I want to do.

TOM: And Rachel and I are going to live together and that's what we want to do. I have to go to work.

(Tom leaves, Jack comes in)

JACK: Bye, Tom. Hey, do you want me to drive Tom in today? I've got time.

KATHLEEN: No, I'm sure he wants to take the bus so he can see Rachel.

JACK: Yeah.

KATHLEEN: I don't know what is wrong with this woman.

JACK: Does something have to be wrong with her?

KATHLEEN: Oh, you've been around her more than I have. Is something wrong with her?

JACK: I don't know.

KATHLEEN: Fine. I'll find out for myself.

JACK: I can find another place to stay. We only have a few more months left of school.

KATHLEEN: Jack, you can stay in the house if you need to, don't be silly.

JACK: Who's being silly? Grace would definitely not want me to live in the house. Neither would Grant.

KATHLEEN: Grace isn't even in the house. And Grant doesn't count.

JACK: I never thought she'd actually go to Zimbabwe, even just to volunteer for two weeks.

KATHLEEN: Hmm, Jeff convinced her it would be good for her resume.

JACK: Yeah, but she's afraid of bugs, they got parasites over there. They get into your eyes and make you go blind or lay eggs in your brain that cause seizures and... I'm sorry. I'm sure she'll be fine. And Jeff, he'll be fine. And you and Jeff will be fine.

KATHLEEN: Yeah, well, we'll give it some time, see if he really wants to live over there.

JACK: Or if you really want to live over there.

KATHLEEN: I don't.

JACK: I thought you agreed to think about it.

KATHLEEN: Oh, I am thinking about it. When I'm not thinking about who's living or not living in the guest house.

JACK: Right.

JUERGENS' HOUSE

Amy sees for the last time her sister.

AMY: Bye, Ashley. Have a nice trip.

ASHLEY: Yeah, don't let the door h*t you in the butt on your way out.

AMY: I said goodbye already. What do you want, a hug?

ASHLEY: You know, this might be the last time you ever see me.

AMY: You're right. I'm sorry. Here...

ASHLEY: I don't need a hug.

AMY: That's not very nice. And you know, I'm a little sensitive to statements like, "This might be the last time you ever see me," considering everything that's happened.

ASHLEY: Oh, you're not that sensitive. You and Ricky are having the time of your lives while Ben and Adrian are going through hell.

AMY: You think that's wrong?

ASHLEY: Do you care what I think?

AMY: Yeah, kind of.

ASHLEY: I think it's a little weird for you and Ricky to get together during this period of mourning. I mean, you've waited all this time, why now?

AMY: 'Cause I realized how much I loved him.

ASHLEY: But you didn't before?

AMY: What is it? What are you getting at?

ASHLEY: The truth. No matter how dark it is.

AMY: And what dark truth would that be?

ASHLEY: Adrian and Ben could split up and if they do, you know she'll come back for Ricky.

AMY: Adrian and Ben are not going to split up. If anything, they're closer than ever, having been through what they've been through. They are. And I'm not with Ricky to keep him away from Adrian. I'm with Ricky because I love him and he loves me and we want to be together. And the two of us and what we do has nothing to do with the two of them and what they do. Whether they stay together or they split up.

ASHLEY: So, now it's whether Adrian and Ben stay together or split up, when just seconds ago they were not splitting up, and they're closer than ever?

AMY: I swear to you, Ashley. I am not moving in with Ricky to keep him away from Adrian.

ASHLEY: Well, what about Ricky? Is he letting you move in to keep himself from Adrian?

AMY: No, he's not! I know he's not. He loves me. And I love him. And I love being with him and our son in that little apartment over the butcher shop. He makes me happy. Why shouldn't I be happy?

ASHLEY: Okay, well, I hope you stay happy. And I mean that, Amy.

AMY: I hope you get happy. I mean that, Ashley.  Safe travels.

ASHLEY: Safe sex.

HIGH SCHOOL

Ricky sees Amy, he comes to her.

RICKY: So?

AMY: I picked up a few more things but my dad wasn't even there. He went up to see Robbie.

RICKY: Good, no big exit. I like that. It's not like you won't see him again. We'll go over there, we'll have him over. We'll see him, and your mom.

AMY: Yeah, I'm not worried about it.

RICKY: Good.

AMY: Here's what I am worried about.

RICKY: Oh, jeez. Don't worry about anything.

AMY: It's just that it's going to be very obvious to Ben that I'm living with you.

RICKY: He knows you stay over there. And it doesn't matter, it's none of his business.

AMY: Yeah, but he'll say something to Adrian. Even though I know we don't want to make any big announcement or anything, I still think I should let her know.

RICKY: Why? We just talked about this morning. What we do has nothing to do with what they do.

AMY: I know, but I still would rather tell her myself than have someone else tell her. You think she'd be upset that we're living together for some reason?

RICKY: Do you think she'd be upset that we're living together for some reason?

AMY: No.

RICKY: Neither do I.

AMY: So then what difference does it make if she knows?

RICKY: What difference does it make if she doesn't know? If the two of them don't know? Ben and Adrian don't need to know everything we're doing. No one does.

AMY: Okay, okay. I won't say anything. I just hope Ben doesn't say anything.

RICKY: He's not going to say anything. He doesn't know anything.

AMY: I think he's going to know. But whatever.

RICKY: Does she know about us? That the two of us are together, that we're sleeping together?

AMY: Um, yeah. I think I might have mentioned it.

RICKY: Why did you want her to know that?

AMY: It's not that I wanted her to know, or didn't want her to know. I think it just came up in conversation.

RICKY: How does whether or not we're having sex just come up in conversation?

AMY: You're kidding, right? We're friends, Adrian and me.

RICKY: I don't care if you're friends with Adrian. It's nice that you're friends with her. But don't get too close, huh?

AMY: Ricky, Adrian needs friends right now. And so does Ben.

RICKY: I know, but I don't want you and me and Ben and Adrian to be some kind of weird foursome. We have our lives together, and they have their lives together.

AMY: I get it. I totally get it. But now that you understand that Adrian already knows that we're sleeping together, don't you think I should just tell her that we're living together?

RICKY: No. Wait till she asks.

AMY: Okay. Well, I'll see you after work. Should I pick up something for dinner? RICKY: Do you ever pick up anything for dinner?

AMY: No, but I could. I could even cook.

RICKY: I'll take care of dinner. You just bring John home.

AMY: Home. Yeah. Okay. Um, I like the sound of that. See you, um, at home.

Amy goes to class and Ben comes to her.

AMY: Hey. Good morning. How are you?

BEN: I'm fine. But I wish you'd stop asking me that every morning because I'm never going to say anything other than "fine" when I'm not.

AMY: Okay, I'll stop asking. And I'm sorry. I just don't know what to say that I haven't said before. I'm just really sorry about everything that happened, Ben. Ugh. And I know I say that every day, too. I'm sorry again.

BEN: It's okay. And I didn't mean to snap at you. Look, is there any way you could drop by our condo today and see if Adrian will let you in to talk to her?

AMY: I don't know. I tried that before and... If she's not ready to see me then...

BEN: She has to talk to someone other than me. I don't seem to be able to say or do the right thing, no matter what I say or do. Maybe you could just try it one more time. I mean, somebody's got to get to her.

AMY: And do what?

BEN: Help her feel better. Or tell her to see a doctor or a therapist or someone who can help her feel better.

AMY: I try not to give her any advice. I just email her and text her stuff that's going on at school or with me. I'm afraid that if I try to get her to get some help, that she might get offended.

BEN: Please. I don't have anyone else to turn to. You and Grace are her closest friends and Grace isn't around.

AMY: Okay. I mean, it wouldn't hurt to try. Um, but I'm going to send her a text or call her first.

BEN: Fine, fine, but she's not going to tell you to go over there, so, just go anyway. Okay? Even if you haven't heard back from her. Please.

AMY: Okay.

BEN: Thank you, really. I... I think this might help somehow. I don't know how but I think it might.

(Ricky joins them)

BEN: Hey, Ricky.

AMY: Um, Ben just asked if I could go talk to Adrian.

RICKY: What a coincidence.

AMY: Yeah, um, I was just telling Ricky that I wanted to go talk to Adrian, but I don't know. I'll see what I can do. I'll see if the counselor will give me a note so I can leave at lunch. See you later.

(Amy leaves)

BEN: What's going on? Do you mind if Amy goes over there?

RICKY: No, I don't mind. I just don't want her going over there and talking about us. Amy and me.

BEN: I know what you're thinking and don't be ridiculous, okay? Adrian does not care about you anymore.

RICKY: I'm sure she doesn't. Ben, wait. Let's talk.

BEN: I don't want to talk! I've had a bad morning. For the past eight weeks, I've had a bad morning followed by a bad night. I can't talk any more today, okay? Just leave me alone. She would have been eight weeks old today.

RICKY: I'm sorry, Ben. It sucks.

BEN: Well put. It does suck. Life sucks. Just not for you and Amy.

BOYKEWICH’S COMPANY

Leo comes to his office, Camille is here.

CAMILLE: Good afternoon. How'd your meeting with the new inspector go?

LEO: Well, he looks 12, and thanks but I don't need any more coffee. I had to drink plenty just to stay awake listening to that guy. He tweets. He thinks I should tweet.

CAMILLE: You definitely shouldn't. How's Ben? Did you talk to Ben today?

LEO: Every day. He's doing okay, Adrian not so much. They had a rough morning. The baby would have been eight weeks old today. It's not that I'm keeping track. I mean, Ben is and Adrian. I don't think that's a good idea, but what do I know? And how are you?

CAMILLE: I'm fine, thanks. But I want to talk to you about something.

LEO: What's that?

CAMILLE: Well, it's something personal. Let's talk in your office.

LEO: Something personal like what?

CAMILLE: Security cameras.

LEO: Yeah, so? Who's listening besides, uh, me and the guys who work for me?

CAMILLE: All right. Well, um, I just, I want you to know that I'm looking for another job.

LEO: That's not personal, that's business. Why would you be looking for another job?

CAMILLE: I just think it would be best.

LEO: Best for who? That wouldn't be best for me. Why would you leave your job? Do you want a raise?

CAMILLE: No.

LEO: I just gave you a raise. Or I could give you another raise. Or a promotion. Well, not a promotion, I want you right here, but we could call you a vice president or something. I mean, what do you want?

CAMILLE: Leo, I don't want another raise or to become vice president or something. I just, I don't know. I've thought seriously about this and I think I need a change.

LEO: Since when? Since when do you think you need to make the change?

CAMILLE: Look, your wife's home, and she can take care of you now.

LEO: More like I'll take care of her. But that has nothing to do with anything. I thought things were going fine here. I mean, after all we've been through the last few months, you'd think of leaving? And never mind the past few months, what about the past 25 years?

CAMILLE: Yeah, well, um, about the past 25 years... I...I just think it's time to make a change in my life. That's all. I'm sorry to h*t you with this as soon as you walked in, but I'd have lost my nerve if I had waited.

LEO: You should have waited. You know what our policy is here. If you're looking for a job, you're looking from home.

CAMILLE: Leo, it's your company. You set the policies.

LEO: Yes, I do. For a reason.

CAMILLE: I'm not going to reveal any of your trade secrets or personal secrets or anything else to anyone. You know me better than that.

LEO: Well, I thought I did, but I guess not. If you wanna leave, leave.

CAMILLE: Leo, you're just angry. All right. Just take some time to think about this. I've been thinking about this for weeks, and it wasn't easy to come to this decision.

LEO: Yeah. Goodbye, Camille.

CAMILLE: Fine. You want me to call the guy to have the locks changed before I leave?

LEO: No, you've done enough. You could go.

CAMILLE: Leo.

LEO: I'm not good at goodbyes. You know that.

CONDO

Adrian watches the TV, Amy visits her.

AMY: Adrian! Adrian, it's me. Adrian, it's me. It's Amy. I don't have a lot of time.

(Adrian opens the door)

AMY: Adrian, hi. Thanks for letting me come by.

ADRIAN: I didn't let you, you just came over here.

AMY: Oh, I didn't know if you got my text.

ADRIAN: Yeah, I did.

AMY: Can I come in?

ADRIAN: Want something to eat?

AMY: No, I'm okay.

ADRIAN: Yeah, you probably don't need food.

AMY: Me?

ADRIAN: I need food right now. And lots of it.

AMY: Okay, well, I mean, maybe, I could, uh, join you for...

ADRIAN: Churro?

AMY: Yeah, okay. I, uh, could eat a churro. Hey, have you heard from Grace?

ADRIAN: Yeah, I've heard from her.

AMY: She's really enjoying her trip over there… We all miss you in school. No, we do. Everyone always asks about you.

ADRIAN: Everyone like who?

AMY: Everyone like all your friends.

ADRIAN: What friends?

AMY: Well, your friends. You know you have friends. All the girls who...

ADRIAN: Came to the baby shower?

AMY: I'm sorry.

ADRIAN: I don't want to see them.

AMY: Yeah. Okay, I... I guess not. Have you talked to the counselor? Do you want to try and finish the year? Could I bring your books home to you? Or, um, get your assignments for you?

ADRIAN: No. I don't feel like doing school work. I don't care about school right now.

AMY: Understandable. I mean, I don't know what it feels like to be in your situation, but I know it must be really tough, Adrian.

ADRIAN: Yeah, it is.

AMY: I'm sorry.

ADRIAN: Let's change the subject.

AMY: All right.

ADRIAN: You can talk to me about Ricky. You know, it's not going to bother me. I wasn't avoiding talking about Ricky.

AMY: I just, I didn't know what to say about Ricky or Ricky and me.

ADRIAN: You can say anything you want. Amy, I love Ben. I really love him. And he loves me. I mean, I can't believe he's still here after what happened. I mean, he obviously doesn't have to be here. The only good thing that's come out of losing Mercy is that I know I can count on Ben for the rest of my life.

AMY: I didn't know her name.

ADRIAN: Yeah. If we're going to be friends, Amy, we're going to have to be honest with each other. So, I've been honest with you, you be honest with me. How are things with Ricky, really? Has the sex changed anything?

AMY: I don't know. Maybe.

ADRIAN: Maybe how?

AMY: I don't know, um... I'm just, I'm happy. Maybe for the first time in my life. I'm just, I'm really happy being with Ricky and staying at his apartment with John, and I've been doing that a lot lately. So...

ADRIAN: That's good.

AMY: Uh-huh.

ADRIAN: Yeah.

AMY: So, we decided we'd just move in together.

ADRIAN: Now?

AMY: Mmm-hmm. Yeah. We were going to wait until summer, but we decided not to.

ADRIAN: Why's that? Why now?

AMY: We just want to.

ADRIAN: Well, good for you. And thanks for telling me. Now this conversation feels real. Not like you're tiptoeing around my feelings or something. I'm really sick of that. Thanks, Amy.

COUNSELOR’S OFFICE

Ricky was in a séance.

COUNSELOR: If you think having Amy move in with you is going to keep you from doing something stupid in the future with Adrian, or any other woman, you're wrong. Only you can keep you from doing something stupid. Is that why you're doing this? Is that why you want Amy and John to move in with you? As some kind of anti-cheat insurance?

RICKY: No.

COUNSELOR: Do you still have feelings for Adrian?

RICKY: Not those kind of feelings. I don't want to have sex with her. But I can't help but feel sorry for her. Feeling sorry for her is dangerous.

COUNSELOR: Why's that?

RICKY: Because it could lead to saying something stupid or doing something stupid.

COUNSELOR: You're not going to do something stupid.

RICKY: I hope not.

COUNSELOR: You hope not? Hope? I know you can make this relationship work because you made up your mind that it will work. And that's what it takes, making up your mind. At least, I thought your mind was made up.

RICKY: No, it is. That is what I want, and I have made up my mind, but...

COUNSELOR: But nothing. Ricky, love changes people. Having a monogamous relationship may always be a challenge for you, but you love Amy, you love John, and you are surrounded by people who love you.

RICKY: Yeah, but Adrian isn't. Sooner or later, Ben is gonna leave her.

COUNSELOR: I can't share information about other clients with you. You know that.

RICKY: I think you just did.

SHOP

Kathleen comes to see Rachel.

KATHLEEN: Hi. I was in the neighborhood. I ought I'd drop by and see if you'd like to grab a cup of coffee or get a bite to eat?

RACHEL: I don't like to have disagreements over food. Food is really expensive and a luxury. So, when I eat, I just like to eat. So, no, thank you.

KATHLEEN: Hmm. Well, I don't have your phone number. I had heard Tom say that you work here.

RACHEL: Yeah, it's the only job I could get right now. It's a thrift shop run by my church.

KATHLEEN: Oh, well, that's nice. That your church is helping you out with a job, any job, right? What else would you rather be doing?

RACHEL: Just about anything other than talking to you, to tell you the truth.

KATHLEEN: I like that. The truth. I can deal with the truth. I just can't deal with not knowing the truth. Now, there must be some reason why you would want to be involved with a man with limitations.

RACHEL: Limitations. I see. You know, Tom's heart doesn't have any limitations. I know he really cares about me and my children, and I know I can trust him. And he's funny and he's sweet. Ugh, okay, look, I might as well tell you. Surprised Tom didn't and eventually someone's going to.

KATHLEEN: (Sighs) Hmm.

RACHEL: I divorced my husband because he b*at me up. Really b*at me up. In front of the children. He completely humiliated me, and he terrified them. And then he took them and he put them in a car and drove away. It took me three months to find them. He went to prison and during all of this, I lost everything. I spent everything I had trying to find them. Tom is the first guy that they've been comfortable around since that happened. Tom makes me laugh. And he makes me happy. And, yes, I can see that he has Down's syndrome and so can the children. It's just, we see so much more than that. Oh, this used to be mine. I gave it away. But I have a job. I can buy it back.

 (Phone ringing)

KATHLEEN: Hmm. Right. I'm so sorry. I need to get this. Oh, it's Grace.

(She answers)

KATHLEEN (at phone):  Hi, sweetie. Oh, actually, I'm here with Rachel, Tom's girlfriend. We were just discussing her moving into the guest house.

HIGH SCHOOL

Ben wants information.

BEN: So, did you see her?

AMY: Um, yeah. I saw her. She let me in. We talked, it was okay. I don't really know if I helped her or cheered her up or anything. She seems to be kind of sad, and I hadn't really picked this up in her texts, but I guess she's also justifiably kind of angry.

BEN: Yeah. I know. Are you okay?

AMY: Me? Yeah, sure. I'm fine.

BEN: Was the place a mess? I mean, it's a mess when I get home every night, but I left it clean this morning.

AMY: Ben, none of that stuff matters right now. It just doesn't matter that...

BEN: That there was food all over the place. I should have warned you. She's not really taking care of things, right now. Not just things, herself. She's kind of a mess. She... I just... I feel so badly for her. I love her, Amy, and I know I said something to you one day about not wanting to be married and not wanting to be a father but... I just, I wish I could take it all back. I feel that somehow life betrayed her because I betrayed her by saying what I said, and I just want you to know that, that... I want to take it all back.

AMY: Ben, come on. You did not betray her. In that single moment in time, you were scared. And that doesn't mean that you really felt that way, all the time. But even if you did, having a baby and getting married in high school is scary.

BEN: Not as scary as holding your stillborn daughter in your arms.

AMY: Hey, it wasn't your fault. It wasn't. It wasn't because you said anything wrong or did anything wrong, you know that.

(Ricky joins them)

RICKY: You really are having a bad day, huh?

BEN: Yeah.

AMY: He is. Having a bad day. I think everyone is staring at us.

RICKY: Yeah. I think they are.

AMY: What should we do?

RICKY: I think we should get used to it. Everyone is going to be watching every move the four of us make. See you at home.

BOYKEWICH’S HOUSE

Leo and Ben take a drink.

BEN: How's that Chianti?

LEO: I like a good Chianti. Especially with a nice steak like that.

BEN: That's your second bottle.

LEO: Well, the first bottle I shared with Betty. I just felt like having another drink. I'm a big guy. I could drink a lot of wine before I feel it.

BEN: I wouldn't mind drinking a little myself.

LEO: You know, I don't believe in that. In underage kids drinking so they can get used to it, and become better drinkers or something when they can legally drink.

BEN: Yeah, I know. I just don't feel like going home.

LEO: Well, you have to go home. And I have to go upstairs.

BEN: You don't want to go upstairs and be with Betty?

LEO: I don't believe in discussing my wife with my son either.

BEN: I'm your grown son. And after the past few months, I thought we could discuss anything. I'm sorry.

LEO: No. I'm sorry, Ben. Sit down. Don't say it out loud.

BEN: I don't want to be married.

LEO: Me neither. But we can't do anything about it.

End of the episode.
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