your work and not be dependent on anybody after monsoon wedding i got film offers and went to naseer where he was rehearsing and i said i want to be an actor he said you are a goodlooking guy why dont you become an actor as the next big actor will come from the modelling world i told him i want to be a serious actor and want to change commercial cinema he said i have not been able to change it for 25 years for four years after that i did only plays with motley which has been my acting schoollets talk about your horses the only thing that has left me fresh and not jaded is that during the toughest time of my life when i was selling things from my house to maintain my five horses at mahalaxmi race course they kept me fresh and alive competing with myself in 2010 i sold my car a toyota majester for just a lakhandahalf to be able to feed my horses it continues to be like a hole where i put all my moneyyour affair with sushmita sen was talked about more than your work did that affect you i was not in a relationship with miss universe and did not feel a sense of conquest in any way the biggest part in my relationship with her over three years was my relationship with her daughter renee i missed only one theatre rehearsal in my life as sushmita wanted me to not go and that is the worst thing i did in terms of my value system i was exposed to fame although i was on the sidelines as i was not a star the breakup was the best thing that happened to me and i realised that i gave it too much time in my life it freed my energy to do things for myself