mumbai a healthy young girl in a bright blue kurta and slacks a white bead necklace around her neck greets you with a broad smile sitting comfortably in a spacious room at st catherines home in andheri she shares her dreams of finding a job to earn a living and getting married its hardly the image of the frail traumatised girl who had withdrawn into complete silence for a month after she was raped in a suburban local train last yearthe incident of her rape in a local train on the eve of independence day last year in the presence of other commuters had hit headlines she remained speechless for some time and it was only after a series of counseling sessions at j j hospital where she was being treated that she broke her silencea year at st catherines has done her good yahan par achha hai it is nice here she told tnn she said she had learnt to read and write in the last one year she also learnt to make colourful paper flowers and these are now neatly placed in her roomhowever while she looks healthy physically she has still not recovered mentally pushpa purathuv superintendent of the home said she regresses and withdraws herself completely each time she is exposed to anything or any person that reminds her of the past it takes three to four days for us to get her back to normal she said adding that she still remembers the train episode vividlyin fact the superintendent recollects how she reacted violently when she had to go to j j hospital for a routine checkup with two police officials she is still unable to cope with any new stress said her psychiatrist dr harish bedekar who holds weekly counseling sessions with her he said that compared to last year she had improved a lot but her behaviour is even abnormal at times due to excessive stress and trauma that she has suffered in the past he saidchairperson of the child welfare committee nilima mehta said according to the report submitted to her she is suffering from a mental condition called psychosis that causes hallucinations and schizophrenia this has been triggered because of a series of traumatic experiences ms mehta saidthe train rape victim as she was referred to last year asked repeatedly whether she would find some work after she leaves the home since this home is meant for minor girls and as she will be 18 this year according to medical tests conducted on her she will have to be shifted to another institutionwe have to take into account her mental condition before we take a decision either she should continue staying at st catherines home as the nurturing environment here has done her good or be shifted to an institution in pune for older girls ms mehta said she refuses to go home as her family has not got in touch with her