live with them as they still treat you like a child so for a while i stayed with my older brother who is an astrophysicist in bangalore i lived with him and did his dishes and a lot of theatre trying to find my feet till i met atul kumar from mumbai i moved to mumbai to do theatre with atul and did a lot of theatre in the beginning i was auditioning for films constantly as i didnt think i could survive on theatre but i am realistic and also knew that i could not do bollywood as i am white didnt speak hindi and couldnt dance so i didnt know where i could fit in i was also doing a lot of ads including some terrible teleshopping ads selling exercise machines but i had to prove to my parents that i could do it on my own so i was not asking for money if i needed money i would ask my brother but not my parents he is much older to me so has been like my parent and is a part of the mad wild family so he understands me better than anyone else i then got a call from rucha pathak of utv for the role in dev d i later found out that she called me as she had been to blue mountain school in ooty that was a neighbouring school so when she read my school on my cv she got interested to meet me anurag had seen my pictures and told rucha i dont want some white model i want an actor i auditioned and anurag was surprised by my audition he said you can act can you learn hindi in two months i said well i can try give me two months he put me in touch with karan makhija who taught me really well right from the basics i went back to audition and got chandas role in dev d that was 2009when did you start seeing anurag kashyap by the time dev d released we were seeing each other six months into the shoot he asked me out finally i didnt think i was aware but he told me later that he was fully madly in love i got along with him but i am not a very open kind of person so i noticed that he liked me only when he started coming for my plays repeatedly he would come and watch every show i was attracted to his honesty we are both very emotional creatures we lived in together for two years before we got marriedwho do you love the most in the world my younger brother who is seven years old as he is most innocent everybody else has their share of baggage i almost feel like he is my son he is a beautiful soul and reminds me of me when i was a kid he will be a good boy with his parents and