i like to live out my dreamshow are you bringing in your birthday i am having a gettogether where i have invited people i respect how has the year been for you i have covered a lot of work now i am 37 but its just a number i might give up the hair dye maybe when i am 40 i will go officially grey thirty seven and growing older how does it feel growing old is a fear i am facing now i admit i worry all the time about being alone when i am old but you cant fight your destiny if i am destined to be alone so be it as im getting older i enjoy being alone in my space isnt that a scary space to be in i like being the master of my days and nights maybe i am getting too used to being alone so much so that i may not enjoy having someone in my life i am answerable and accountable only to my mother she understands my passions and weaknesses the same situation with someone else seems like a distant and strange option a couple of years ago i was looking for a relationship and commitment im no longer sure im ready to do that life is no longer a poem a novel or a book i realise life is very different its been a stressful year stress is good i am happy with the stress its a healthy kind of stress and im happy that our production house has undertaken so much work dharma productions has never been so active does it take your personal life away no its a choice thinking about my personal life would make me very depressed better to move away from it work is therapeutic its a healthy distraction does that mean your personal life is unhappy its empty better that way than to fill it up unnecessarily i have realised emptiness is better than unwanted clutter i have lots of close friends but i have no personal life do you surround yourself with hyperactivity to fight off loneliness its a conscious decision to surround myself with people who are doing quality work i feel the people in my workplace are a family beyond an immediate family i feel the need to constantly nurture that family it fills in all the empty spaces in my life without any expectations from me isnt that a great equation but thats like being exploited ive been subjected to that treatment in the past you can never run away from the risk of being used ive mastered the art of noexpectation from people around me i am attached to and yet detached from people around me its a brilliant balance to achieve why do you have so many untried directors in your company they are the hungriest and they come with no baggage but hunger to achieve is a measure of talent it is the hunger within them makes