mumbai shaking off the social stigma of being a terror suspect and leading a respectable life do not seem to be easy the 26yearold youth from the city may have been able to turn a new leaf with police help even after returning from a terror training camp but normal life seems to elude several others who were marked as terror suspects toi finds out that getting a job or even getting married can be very difficult for such suspects even after decades of their first brush with the law bookseller jameel gulzar 35 joined students islamic movement of india simi now a banned outfit in 1996 a few years later he realized that he did not subscribe to its ideology i quit the outfit in 2000 before it was banned and submitted a copy of my resignation letter to the local police station its been 12 years now but still i am called for questioning if there is any terror attack said gulzar whose financial condition is rather poor after quitting simi in 2002 he came to mumbai for job and gave his new address to the police whenever i visited my hometown i told the mumbai police and after reaching home i would have to report to the local police station once in two days i am not involved in any antisocial or antinational activity but i can feel the discomfort of my neighbours in having tea with me said gulzar who is yet to find a girl who is ready to marry him similar is the story of another man in his early 30s who was put behind bars for his participation in simi activities though he is innocent he is apparently socially ostracized though i did not commit any crime but i was jailed for a few months and labelled an active member of a terror outfit i want to lead a normal life but every week i have to visit the local police station and tell them i have not left the city said the former simi member showing a diary where the police sign with the date and time whenever he goes for his attendance he joined simi to work for the community but by the time he realized his mistake it was too late when i decided to leave the outfit had already been banned even today i have to report to the police every month he said adding that he could get married after a fouryear hunt as most of the proposals sent to prospective brides were turned down due to his name in the police records the 137 blasts which claimed several lives and maimed more than 100 wreaked havoc on the life of a civil engineer from ghatkopar i was charged of being part of a banned outfit in 2003 there was not a single witness against me in court but i was made to sit in a crime branch unit for two days before i