interview year quondam student pursuing cs final diminish love one juniors school became good initially got committed much later next years see make up legion future plans unfortunately screw due fight decided ever day struggling exactly days broke days back though back pattern leading balanced life compared months post breakup contemplated make life idea free unbearable pain agony separated cross every day world overcome reality still think lot distract thoughts failed miserably solution ca n function like anymore dr ashima pruthi disturbed make love state glad suicidal thoughts decided give life another gamble understand relationships seem eternal becomes impossible move clock observe fact ex girlfriend cheated happily moved still stuck past in force move getting away take holiday self introspection hobby community service also besides distracting one remark things must resolve spine means resolved live believe nothing bigger taking control none activities forget try visiting psychologist talk hurtful past needs outlet n keep inside dr ashima pruthi counsellor psychologist