nov 14 2012151 taylor wants to like herself but she cant turn off the voice inside her head that tells her shes not good enough and that the way she looks isnt perfect it really feels like it is a second person inside of you she said its like your best friend but your enemy at the same time its hard to distinguish sometimes the ed talking and whats taylor talking ed is the nickname taylor 20 gives to her eating disorder diagnosis which as she puts it was switched all over the place originally i was diagnosed with bulimia she said then my symptoms didnt match bulimia so then they diagnosed me as anorexia bingepurge type because there are two different types and then i didnt meet the weight criteria for anorexia so then they said ok you have ednos and i was like well what is that ednos stands for eating disorder not otherwise specified and up to 70 percent of all eating disorders come under the ednos banner according to the national association of anorexia nervosa and associated disorders 24 million people in the us of all ages and genders suffer from an eating disorder many of the ednos symptoms are the same as other eating disorders such as bulimia or anorexia but dont fully meet the criteria of those disorders on the other hand ednos sufferers might exhibit a combination of eating disorders such as being severely strict with counting calories but then still purging after eating the issues lie as much in the mind as in the meal said dr douglas bunnell a clinical psychologist and vice president of the renfrew center a renowned eating disorder treatment program with 11 locations in nine states its still a misperception out there that these are relatively benign sorts of disorders or diets gone bad bunnell said these are lifethreatening serious illnesses they have the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric diagnosis ednos warning signs and symptoms after receiving an ednos diagnosis taylor said she felt a little disappointed as if her condition wasnt as serious as the more wellknown eating disorders because you only hear about bulimia and anorexia she said a lot of people dont think just because you dont meet the weight criteria oh you dont have an eating disorder but ednos is a deadly condition with a mortality rate of 52 percent higher than both anorexia and bulimia despite the fact its sufferers often look healthy ednos other eating disorders resources how to get help taylor said her eating disorder began when she was 12 though she said the pressure to be thin started long before that i remember asking the doctor when i was 6 years old why i had these fat thighs she said taylor said she had been secretly binging purging and restricting calories all through high school while keeping up with her dance team still she says she has always felt fat and doesnt remember ever