what i ami entered the show yearning for love i got it from my inmates now when i am out of the show i am being showered with love by viewers many mothers have contacted me and spoke about how much they love me what else do i needon his major confession about his sexuality just like anyone i also struggled to hide my true self from everyone but when i entered the show i became close to aparna and jasmine who are leading their lives in the way they want initially i was thrilled to know someone just like me eventually i felt like opening up to them words cant explain the relief of having someone who can understand youi was not concerned about opening up about my sexuality and coming out as gay on national television i thought this might inspire at least one person like me to come out i know the pain of holding it to ourselves for years togetheri never thought that there would be a big fiasco out there after my revelation i did expect some negative reactions but surprisingly i got many messages from people like me opening up to me about their wish to have the same courage as me people have accepted me as i am see it is not our mistake that our sexual orientation is different it is natural everyone should understand we also have the right to live a dignified lifefamilies are watching the lives of lgbtq peoplei marvel at the courage the channel as well as the production house had taken to bring a representative of the lgbtq community into the show in a world where people still give an ayye look when talking about a gay lesbian or transgender the leading channel of malayalam has taken the bold move of evoking a changing wave families are watching the lives of lgbtq people in their living rooms now they are talking about people like us without shame and stigma i strongly hope that malayalis are understanding usthe people who rated me as the undeserving cheered for meundoubtedly the best moment inside the house was winning the captaincy task and being announced as the first captain of the season the people who rated me as the undeserving cheered for me that was indeed a goosebumps moment i will never ever forget that moment in lifeduring these 28 days i learned a lot i explored myself i lost my habit of blindly trusting anyone i realized that to survive in the world take everything with a pinch of saltfuture plansi always wished to be an anchor bigg boss made me dream of it more i will work hard and make myself a better anchor and magician also i will start taking baby steps toward my big dream building an orphanage i wish to quench the hunger of everyone around me but i will make sure to satisfy at least one stomach with whatever i have