coming iffi many months stepping constitute closure sutapa sikdar wife late actor irrfan khan sutapa writer son babil attended screening irrfan classic paan singh tomar festival memory sidelines sutapa spoke goa times missing irrfan actor profession never life passing like friend go forth excerpts chat screening paan singh tomar iffi friday emotional moment integral interview citizenry remember irrfan many style towering actor ambassador indian cinema world wonderful human being flavour hear people remember fondly first meter come home meeting people know would react knew vulnerable want amount people fond memories irrfan would get messages people met surprise introvert enjoy public gaze connected people see performances babil would demand people connected baba told irrfan behaved way guts dictated soul said instance felt writer with child small matter honesty truth would heed five hours people keep tattle irrfan legacy kind star legacy made imprints souls generation actors star families hum bhi kar sakte year irrfan became one ambassadors indian cinema abroad yet home people fans cordial person think helped stay grounded family weird quirky brainsick drop time filmi parties would rather expend time park visit jungle profession calling lifestyle growing organic veggies watching stars telescopes trained kids watch documentaries feature films conventional family spaces thing arrive at category special inside outside never believed definitions consider want get married move unitedly believe children mainstream education got married wanted home base loan ease exhausting branded suit stage waving helping hand yet wellfixed staying hut karnataka even attached bathroom name highly distressing heartbroken person dying life think never live basic rules values fundas alike us never fight wanted kind things partner live friend leaving rare individual meet people similar every day six months extend away asked loved always matte up have intercourse kids said love admitted today admitting would tell would navigate sickness years gained widespread recognition irrfan would character actor fringes hindi cinema waiting place spotlight years wish moments despair support period irrfan would never feel overjealous even private moments never said got rather always any written destiny get invariably hopeful would make matter long sat vehicle roamed city ambitious person push part camps chase directors good influence path laughs told uranium yesterday iffi would bring soma closure babil also spoke dealing personal loss part person evolution something afraid nine months since irrfan left us coped found closure still come full term accepted fact lost difficult coming house iffi special wanted relive moments mumbai cue star famous person need get stake roots come terms nothing nobody dreams reminds began month pandemic work kept occupied serve keep mind busy digress planning restart career kept dorsum burner many reasons farm kilometres bombay planted around trees taking care wanted finish nail down concerned quantum physics astrology things nothing business like celebrate life fashion know happy never happy matter needed irrfan would wear branded suit home would wear whatsoever made penned heartfelt note social media dec order difficult wish worst year still last year day side by side gardening busy building birds house say goodbye feel thoughts ideas