for someone who says she doesnt want to be known as the face of cancer being signed for a film because she is a cancer survivor is no less than irony manisha koirala is all set to make a comeback with rajkumar hiranis biopic on sanjay dutt starring ranbir kapoor she is playing sanjays mother actress nargis dutt in the film and it was manishas resilience against the disease and the fact that she would relate better with the character that prompted hirani to cast her recently in jaipur as one of the speakers at a talk show manisha said it is so true i firmly believe that we can make the worst situation of our life into a narrative of triumph as an actor if i can take the experience of my trauma and put it in a form of performance i would love to do that she added yes i will have to relive those painful moments but i am an actor it is my job and i hope i do it welli am cautious that i dont do boring rolesunlike earlier times when she said she would do films without giving a second thought to the script manisha said that she now picks a film carefully i choose films carefully and not carelessly like earlier times i have become selective i am cautious that i dont do boring roles i want to do varied roles she saidi was restlessly moving from one relationship to anothermanisha spoke about the time she was undergoing treatment for cancer i had to sign waivers which warned me of possible harm i had to sign forms that said i could have permanent heart damage ear damage a permanent neuropathy problem which would cause my hands to shake for the rest of my life this was the time when i got really scared at that moment i wasnt even bothered about my looks or hair loss my life was in danger i started thinking that this is the end of my life said the actress she also admitted that she lived her life carelessly and never took her health seriously until she was diagnosed with cancer i adopted an unhealthy lifestyle i signed a bad film that tanked at the box office then i signed another and another all of them flopped but i didnt care because even then i had some good directors wanting to work with me i thought i could always bounce back but that never happened meanwhile i was restlessly moving from one relationship to another and soon i was diagnosed with cancer i must confess that i had messed up my life i ignored all those people who cared for me including my family but now its been four and a half years that i am cancerfree i have found a new way of living i have realised the importance of health when i was done with cancer so i nurture it now and i do whatever