in my head i have been married three years ago i have a booming career in electronic media and i am a proud mother of a sweet kid but that is all in my head during every interview you appear for they ask you one question where do see yourself in five years the question was hurled at me so often that i dared to dream and made a five year plan for myself i saw myself working and succeeding in a satisfactory job married with a kid and was already thinking about the next five year plan i had hoped to own a small house in delhi somewhere with my husband which we both would have decorated from scratch as per my plan by the end of the time period i would have earned enough to afford a help for all the domestic chores and led a comfortable life my family would have taken rejuvenating vacations read their favourite novels on lazy sunday mornings and hung out at parks in the evenings now at the end of the five year term i have a stable well paying job i own a house in delhi i have decorated the house from scratch i have been pregnant on innumerable sundays ive read amazing books as the sun shines and taken strolls during evenings ive gone on crazy vacations but all this by myself for the first two years i stayed with the plan got myself a job did well got promoted found a guy fell in love we talked about marriage and then my mother passed away my life went for a toss my brother who had been abroad for past ten years and knew nothing of my personal life ever since school became the controller of my fate its not like we have never kept in touch we spoke on phone regularly and he knew i was dating someone but he and i had very different views of the world and life and as the rules go for indian families i was cajoled out of my views his view of life for me was also luxurious rather more lavish than i ever dared to envisage he wanted me to spend a year abroad to explore the world instead of settling down but i fought for what i wanted until my boyfriend also backed out and refused to marry me in the disguise of supporting my brothers views heartbroken and still severely depressed i decided i could not live in the same city anymore and i decided to go abroad it was much worse in a far away land i made friends promptly but these friends could never make up for the fact that i didnt belong there i belonged in a one bhk apartment in delhi with a husband the highrise buildings impeccably paved streets and stunning parks might all have been sand dunes in a desert to go abroad i had left my well established job and