hair and say how animalistic because i had long uncut hair but i felt like the biggest thing was that even the teachers would kind of hold me backyouve alluded in your music to being a survivor of sexual and physical assault saying that you were buried by cultural stigmas what did you mean by thatgrowing up the saddest thing for me was hearing about my moms experience in the 1984 antisikh riots she would tell me about how when women were raped they had this kind of mark on them they could never be the same person after that when that same thing happened to me years later those words stuck with me it was so sad for me to think of myself as condemned to a certain fate because somebody else had committed this kind of violence against me after a year or so i started being honest about everything that had happened to me with the people around me even if it made them uncomfortable speaking my truth about what happened liberated me in a way i hope to heal people with lucid through music and through sharing my storieshow does lucid fit into the greater picture of the metoo movementi get so many messages on a daily basis about how lucid helped survivors of sexual assault or sexual violence i feel so awful that so many people can resonate with that but for me its also the most healing thing because that was my intent with the record i didnt go out trying to making this super mainstream pop record it was really to tell my story as a survivor and help other people who have been through that or needed a healing force in their lives