have given a flop but it would be no big deal because you would still have another film i remember when my first film flopped i was really scared i started beating myself for my choices i felt it was the end of it and i wont have work anymore but then after quite some time i picked myself up i was working earning money doing so much work and then you realise thats lifedo you think youve succeeded in carving a niche in this industry i want to believe ive been successful in life and i think thats what everyone should aspire for its taken me years to come to this mindset and realise that you dont need to compare yourself with other people inherently we dont do that but its the society its the people around that tell you to compare yourself with others look at their skin they look so much nicer look at their body its so much nicer were pushed into comparisons we are all tuned to be in a rat race my first job was picking up tables at mcdonalds because i had to pay my own tuition fees its really expensive to study abroad i remember my parents couldnt afford it my dad was in the air force and he couldnt pay all of it he told me if you can afford it go ahead but if you cant then study in india so i did that when i did my first modelling job this was after miss india i got only 1500 and even then people behaved like they were doing me a favour fifteen hundred rupees is nothing nowadays models wont even look at that fee from that to now i think ive made big progress i walk down the road and people know who i am i think thats successwere you ever cast in a project for all the wrong reasonsyes but thankfully i didnt end up doing those projects either they wanted to show me the wrong way or they were only ready to give me the film if i would go the wrong waytheres a lot of chatter about colourism and there has been a notion in showbiz that if you are fairskinned you have an advantage has there been any point in your life when you have been made to feel insecure for your skin colour it happened with a brand contract once and it was actually my fault and that of my exagency we did not read the contract properly which said whitening and not brightening products if i put cucumber on my face or eat the right food everyday the brightness of my face will make a difference but the brand decided to screw me and sue me because i wasnt ready to endorse their skin whitening products thats when i realised that we come from a land where theres a problem some indians have the mindset where we think like white supremacy americans are