i told him the story he did not tell me i was a terrible mommy which was really nice of him he said that he thought that parenting fail i still have to push down feelings of insecurity when giving myself over to the mercies of the camera but im working on it lessons learned from a year of staying in the picture the only thing i regret is not having given more thought to the surgeons warning that as a result of the surgery i may lose my ability to breastfeed i was 18 childrearing seemed decades away theyll be able to fix that by then i thought my breast isnt best