new delhi after persistent knocking when tanmoy kundus friends broke into his room at delhi universitys gwyer hall they were hoping to find him in deep sleep his friends at the north campus mens hostel knew that the 31yearold phd student working on bengali crime fiction was under medication and often sleept at odd hours they found him hanging from the ceiling fan the pithy suicide note which police found laid out neatly on his bed next to his mobile phone said i refuse to beg job sic love and honesty so i do not want to live in this society and academic world no one is responsible for this this is my own decision this is simple sic case of suicide a small postscript instructed police to hand over his belongings to his family which is based in kolkata and to donate his books to the library kundu had a gold medal in masters and a junior research fellowship behind him ahead of him lay a phd degreehe had submitted his thesis three months ago his paper on bengali detective fiction was soon to appear in an academic journal friends and family remember him as a sharp intelligent and organized individual they also say he was overwrought with anxiety about finding a job he was under medication for depression his friends knew that his family didnt he was beginning to sound tense about finding a job he had appeared for interviews in delhi and kolkata they didnt work out we told him that he should keep trying says his older brother anay kundu who in his last phone conversation had convinced tanmoy to book tickets in advance to come home for durga puja in october the laptop found in his room he says had the railways booking website open during his ma days says anay tanmoy used to idolize achyut mandal one of his professors friends say tanmoy even carried a picture of him he was the one who gave him the idea for his thesis tanmoy had grown very close to him recalls anay in 2009 mandal too had hanged himself that affected him deeply in fact we called him back home he stayed there till he was in a frame of mind to be by himself again says anay who found that the call log in his brothers phone was deleted were going to request police to look into it says the brother who found about four months medical prescription in his room aamir sadiq bhat kundus roommate of three years has moved into another room for now he is hardly able to type out his phd thesis due next month he says bhat was one of kundus closest friends that day i was stepping out in the evening with a friend tanmoy just casually asked me how long i would be gone i told him id take a while that was the last conversation we had says bhat a student of comparative literature who did not