romance are like how it is in the books and songs so when at age 19 i saw a handsome guy i got attracted i was immature and stubborn and thought he is the perfect guy for me i later realised that what i felt wasnt love when we are in love we think that after marriage whatever flaws your partner has can be rectified and that life will be colourful i had totally given up on everything else my career and my dreams a person who had no clue about rural life i was living with my husband in his house along with his family things were really tough but i tried my best to stay after 12 years when things became worse we parted ways i returned to films and then someone else came into my life even then i never imagined how things will turn out after 18 years unexpectedly my marriage broke it was a shock i was depressed and at one point thought that i will never come out of it but i got back with the support of a few good friends and returned to india i got into films and slowly came back to normalcy in fact cinema has always been my strong pillar of support and it has helped me bounce back to life it has always helped me keep my mind occupied and stay positive but i believe all these experiences in my life have made me what i am today life is the biggest teacher and all we should do is delete the past and live in the present i believe that the past is history the future a mystery and the present is a gift of god accept it and enjoy it hence i always try to be positive but should confess that it isnt an easy thing to do but i strive hard only if you are positive can you pass it on to your kids watch cinema has been my pillar of support which helped me bounce back every time shanthi krishna