lisa ray who walked the red carpet at the toronto film festival despite her failing health spoke to toi from torontoyou walked the red carpet for your latest film cooking with stella its also got a great response at the toronto film festival was the film fun to make in spite of your health conditioni dont know if i had multiple myeloma when i was shooting for the film but i was looking forward to walking the red carpetit seems youre determined to fight it out and lead a normal life and do things the way you wouldve done before the setback how hard is it to make your body listen to your determined spiritit was easier in the beginning because i wasnt very affected by the treatment in fact i attended a charity event in la as well as a festival here in toronto when i was doing chemo it has a cumulative effect on your body and system im also learning every day your courageous decision to blog about your health setback has been received with stupendous warmth across the world how have you dealt with this surge of global affectioni am totally overwhelmed what began as a spontaneous decision to express my condition openly has evolved into this beautiful forum but im just the train conductor id like to keep inviting people onto the yellow diarieswhat prompted you to share news of your illness on the blogyes i shared my diagnosis with all a small circle of friends as soon as i knew then it was a matter of getting used to the new conditions in my life the new treatments the lifestyle the insurance papers etc then before i knew it we had the toronto international film festival and it seemed like an interesting time the idea of the film festival culture mixed with the reality of my treatments i had to be honest i dont like to hide anything in my life anyhowwhat was your initial reaction to the cancer and who were the first people you shared your condition withmy initial reaction was as i described in my blog and my father and my partner were with meyou are passionate about travelling how therapeutic is the process of visiting and absorbing new places travelling has been a big part of my life however i feel im in a different phase now im happy to be in one placeyou are all set to do prawal ramans serpent files with sanjay dutt are you looking forward to being in india for the shootingcant comment on that nowtoronto remains your primary home any favourite citiesi love dharamsala there are a lot of cities i like but now my journey is a lot more internalhow creatively and commercially satisfying have your recent films like i cant think straight kill kill faster faster beenevery creative endeavour is satisfying to me im also pleased to hear that my old garden saree ads were playing i have a fond and