tihar they would hear from them how indira gandhi and her son sanjay gandhi were perpetuating the emergencyboth of us at times feared that we would be poisoned to death and when we told the jail superintendent about it he rubbished it in jail we used to meet other women prisoners and we celebrated both hindu festivals and eid and even prayed together but i was a prisoner i wanted to get out of jail and in winter i wanted to go tokolkata to spend the christmas there and see a lot of polo and meetfriends then came the orders of my release in january 1976 i wanted to invite naveen patnaik now cm of orissa and others for a drink to celebrate my release but the idea was dropped because biju patnaik father of naveen was still in jail the rajmata told this writerafter the emergency was lifted when the elections were announced gayatri devi did not contest and only said she did not want to pursue politics in a democratic country that was ruled by a dictator obviously referring to indira gandhiwhen the counting of votes were done at rai bareilly and at amethi she was watching the polo match at jaipurs rambagh polo ground she would come to the press enclosure to know about the voting trends in rai bareilly and at amethi when she was informed that both the mother and son were trailing she jumped with joythe results of their defeat were withheld and when she called up this correspondent to know the fate of indira and sanjay and when informed that both of them lost she said come on lets celebrate it and you deserve a gift from me for conveying this big news