mumbai union minister nirmala sitharaman on thursday said speaking hindi gives her shivers and she speaks the language with hesitationspeaking at an event organised by the hindi vivek magazine sitharaman referred to a previous speakers announcement that her speech will be in hindiaddressing an audience in hindi gives me shivers a candid sitharaman said explaining the circumstances that have led to this conditionsitharaman said she was born and attended college in tamil nadu which was in the midst of an agitation against hindi and also witnessed violent protests against hindistudents opting for either hindi or sanskrit as the second language even those who stood in merit lists did not get scholarships given by the state government because of their choices of languages the union cabinet minister claimedsitharaman said while it is difficult for a person to learn a new language after attaining adulthood she could pickup her husbands mother tongue telugu but could not take up hindi may be due to past happeningsi speak hindi with a lot of sankoch hesitation she said admitting that the fluency with which she can speak is affectedthe finance minister however continued speaking in hindi and finished the entire speech which lasted over 35 minutes in hindisitharaman said india could have achieved the position as the fifth biggest economy in the world earlier itself but for the imported philosophy of socialism which depended on centralised planningshe termed the 1991 economic reforms undertaken by the then congress government as aadheadhure reforms halfbaked reforms where the economy was not opened in the right way but as per the strictures imposed by the imfno progress happened till the bjps atal bihari vajpayee took on the pmship and his focus on infrastructure building roads and mobile telephony helped us a lotten more years were lost after the corrupt upa government came to power where the focus was making personal gains and the countrys interests were left behind she claimedafter his ascent to the pms post narendra modi initiated fundamental pathbreaking reforms which also include the direct benefit transfer scheme that has ensured transparency in public delivery without leakages siharaman said adding that benefits of up to rs 2 lakh crore have occurred as a result of the schemethe policy decisions have also laid the foundations for the emergence of a big lender like sbi which can serve the credit needs of the economy quickly she saidthe modi regime has also taken the right decisions to be away from businesses where the government should not be sitharaman said pointing out that air india was facing losses of rs 20 crore per day till it was privatised