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In a book I'm reading I found this sentence, which I'm not quite sure about:

> N先生、わたしは今日まで先生を尊敬もし、信頼もしてきました。こんな形でTheEndなんて何とも胸クソが悪い。
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> **わざわざお母さんに、「教室移動の時間が長くなっている」と遠まわしに言わなくとも、ズバッと、わたしに向かって、「お前は東高じゃあ面倒みきれんで養護学校へ行け」と言ってくれた方が、どんなにか気持ちの整理がつくか......**

The first sentence if for context, in the second:

  * わざわざお母さんに、「教室移動の時間が長くなっている」と遠まわしに言わなくとも: Also without saying "The time for changing classrooms is getting longer" in a round about way to my mother (guessing 言わなくとも is the same as 言わなくても).

  * ズバッと、わたしに向かって、「お前は東高じゃあ面倒みきれんで養護学校へ行け」と言ってくれた方が: turning towards me and saying to me "We can't take care of you at East High, so go to the school for disabled" would be more (the 方が part).

  * どんなにか気持ちの整理がつくか: I'm confused about this last part: [整理がつく](https://jisho.org/word/%E6%95%B4%E7%90%86%E3%81%8C%E3%81%A4%E3%81%8F) in this case I think it's something like "To put order in one's feeling"; どんなにか I guess is どんなに + か, so "How much" plus the interrogative particle; all in all it sounds something like "How much should I put order in my feelings", but I don't really understand what should mean, and I don't understand how the 方が part fits in.

Context: the protagonist and her family are considering changing school from a
normal one (East High) to one for disabled people; I'm guessing the speaker of
the quoted parts is the teacher, since without passive お母さんに should be "[said]
to my mother", with the first quote really said (「教室移動の時間が長くなっている」) and the
second being just the protagonist wishing the teacher said that
(「お前は東高じゃあ面倒みきれんで養護学校へ行け」).
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Meaning of どんなにか気持ちの整理がつくか
I'm not sure what exactly is confusing to you, but first the whole quote seems
to be an inner speech of the protagonist, who apparently has some handicaps.

Second, when one says 気持ちの整理がつく, what is 'put in order' is the feelings
themselves. The opposite is 気持ちが乱れる = to feel disturbed, annoyed, etc. So
気持ちの整理がつく means roughly _to calm down_ , or in this context, to accept the
situation (of being transferred to a school for disabled).

The whole quote describes the protagonist felt bad about the teacher N having
made roundabout complaints to her(?) mother, instead of saying directly to her
that she was becoming a burden. The last sentence means _the protagonist would
feel much better if the teacher said so._ ( _feel better_ for the translation
of 気持ちの整理がつく might be too liberal, but it is close to さっぱりする in this context,
which means something like _get something off one's chest_ )

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Edit

In the second paragraph the following are compared

  1. わざわざお母さんに、「教室移動の時間が長くなっている」と遠まわしに言わなくとも、
  2. ズバッと、わたしに向かって、「お前は東高じゃあ面倒みきれんで養護学校へ行け」と言ってくれた方が

1 is what actually happened, and the protagonist wishes if 2 had happened
instead (it didn't).

A fairly natural interpretation is the protagonist didn't like 1 because it
made her feel that the teacher wasn't frank/honest with her in the sense that
the teacher did feel the protagonist was a burden but did not tell her so.
Then the protagonist wishes if the teacher frankly told her so, which would
clear off her chest simply because it would mean the teacher was at least
honest with her.

* * *

On 気持ちの整理がつく. It is more or less a set phrase, but a literal approach would be
as follows.

First, in this context it is 私の気持ちの整理がつく (although the possessive would be
usually omitted to avoid consecutive の), which is _my feelings is ordered_.

Second [a dictionary
says](https://dictionary.goo.ne.jp/word/%E6%95%B4%E7%90%86/#jn-122988)

> 乱れた状態にあるものを整えて、きちんとすること。「資料を整理する」「気持ちの整理がつく」「交通整理」

So 気持ちの整理がつく means "change from disturbed state to ordered state", which
essentially means "to feel less disturbed, to calm down".

So どんなにか私の気持ちの整理がつくか is

  * How more ordered my feelings will be

The condition to this "ordered feeling" is _if the teacher had told the
protagonist, face to face, that she is becoming too burdensome to take care of
in East high, so she should go to the school for disabled_.

* * *

Yet another approach is to consider の in 気持ちの整理がつく as the subject marker.
どんなにか気持ちの整理がつくか would be どんなにか **私は** 気持ちの整理がつくか, which in turn becomes どんなにか
私は 気持ち **が** 整理がつくか or どんなにか 私は 気持ち **が** 整理 **される** か, which is like

  * How much more ordered the feelings will be for me

Of course, these expressions are totally unidiomatic, but possibly helpful in
understanding the sentence.
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