I'm quite baffled by what a character in a manga says. I'll try to explain the
context as best as I can so you can get the picture:  
  
There are 2 characters, A previously said (in the last chapter of the manga)
something very deep and ended with a question (directed towards B who was the
only one there-also both characters are enemies if it helps, thus A was
talking about his philosophy/his conviction.

> A: ...面白くないことを言った。「そうだね」という肯定以外受け入れる気がないくせに問いかけのように喋ってしまった。。。  
>

This whole sentence thing at first, I translated it like this: "I said
something boring...Although I'm unwilling to accept anything besides "Yes", I
blurted out a question." I'm sure there are mistakes (問いかけのように喋ってしまった also
sounds very odd) but what I found strange is the usage くせに, because wouldn't
のに work better in this case? Can it actually be used with the first person and
I could have simply replaced with のに? That would be the only that it would
make sense to me because A has a strong opinion and apparently won't accept
anything other than yes and yet he slipped out a question but did not get a
reply (from B who was there with him).
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くせに when the subject is the first person?
くせに doesn't change the grammatical connection. It is nothing but a のに in the
syntactic layer, but adds a sense of disapproval ([What's the difference
between にしては、 わりに and くせに?](https://japanese.stackexchange.com/q/69021/7810))
in the pragmatic layer. In other words, the nuance くせに has doesn't go against
any particular word in this sentence. If I had to merge it into an English
sentence, I'd choose to surround the entire sentence.

> **I don't like how** I said it as if I'm asking (sb's opinion) even though I
> was unwilling to accept anything but affirmation of "you're right".

The negative feeling of くせに renders into disdain when it points to others, and
self-disgust when yourself. Since it's not something literally translatable,
any translation that gives a hint of such emotion would be right.

By the way, every time I see くせに I recall the game title
[勇者のくせになまいきだ。](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/What_Did_I_Do_to_Deserve_This,_My_Lord%3F),
which is "mostly unknown outside Japan" according to the WP article, I think
partly because it's full of jokes, memes and satires only relatable in the
Japanese context.
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