[{"text_idx": "#000000", "text": "Dear Friends of the Clinic! I would not be exaggerating if I were to say that dealing with shadows is my calling, my profession, and my pleasure. In terms of the situation reported\nhere, I can say with certainty that the long shadows of the pines are beckoning like cruel black fingers from the edges of the nursery [1]. And that is without\nmentioning the extensive variety of strange voices which sail through my substantial office here in the Hall of the Murals from time to time. And needless to say, this is a very well-appointed"}, {"text_idx": "#000001", "text": "It is an awful thing that we shall have to lock our doors in due course from a lack of funding after the death of our generous but unrecognised sponsor, the Old Soldier. He disappeared\nwhen I was a child, and for years he wandered in lands overseas, joining the army (he says), and travelling to the four corners of the world to discover, or invent, pioneering knowledge regarding\nthe magic of words and beguiling music. And all the time, while he was away, I was labouring and studying, trying to make ends meet. It is fair to say that voices were always calling on him from\nwithin and from without, to accomplish considerable wonders, in his opinion at least."}, {"text_idx": "#000002", "text": "In the end, after suffering much (so the story goes), when he had accumulated a stack of money through his ventures (and of course he always acted legally, except when he was playing\nfast-and-loose), he came home, gained a Certificate in Studies (I am learned Doctor, as you know), and became a self-taught teacher, for no reason at all in my humble opinion. Of course, while he\nwas enjoying himself so much, it was I who was the true soldier, so to speak, who was fighting for truth and justice on behalf of the downtrodden and the afflicted, learning in the process so\nmuch about the human mind, and its peculiarities, and the ability to experience special states of consciousness. The old rogue never found true magic, despite the incessant protestations to the\ncontrary, even on his death-bed."}, {"text_idx": "#000004", "text": "In this document, I present a full report on our most famous case, containing everything which was discussed and written in our Clinic, in addition to transcripts of several conversations\nwhich happened here. I have indulged myself also in including some explanatory notes at the head of each section by my secretary, Helen Grossmann MSc (the \u2018prospective mentalist\u2019 in her own\nwords). She has provided me with exceptionally helpful warnings and ideas on a number of essential topics. In the light of these forthright observations, I need to advise you from the outset that\nour syncretic methods, which are based on dreaming and imagining, are more similar to poetry-making and casting spells than to the logical techniques of science. Here multiple personalities,\nfractured landscapes, and stream of consciousness, are the normal thing [3]."}, {"text_idx": "#000007", "text": "With all the complexity, one must ask: can I tell you who is who on every occasion? I cannot, most assuredly \u2013 as in the old Kimbric tales, sometimes women are flowers or owls; sometimes\nmen become eagles, deer, wolves, or wild boars [4]. And in the Heart of the Continent, women can be does, and pine-trees also. There is enchantment everywhere in this tale, as there always is in\nthe real world (whatever that means), if you are able to discern it accurately enough. Doubtless, these chunks of flesh are transmogrified by magical acts, through naming. They cannot tell lies,\nas they do not know the truth, it appears on the surface. But, having investigated in more detail, one confesses that possibly they do recognise veracity, but that they do not speak about it\nbecause they are mute. On this account, perhaps, they conceal sins of all kinds, which will be revealed here as a result of my delving, without their own knowledge. Go at it carefully, therefore,\nwhen you come into the shadows which melt and coagulate like tincture in the Majishya-ni\u0301r\u2019s cauldron."}, {"text_idx": "#000010", "text": "Reference is made here (often incorrectly), to literary sources, and to popular culture, but I have not attempted to clarify: shadows of the real thing, we might say, are the mistakes and\nomissions. Also, there is a little crude language, which I have left extant, for the sake of completeness: who has the right to silence the host of voices which communicate here, whether they be\nrefined or otherwise vulgar? And what is speech today anyway but a pale shadow of the magical singing that existed at the time of the Tower of Biblael \u2013 that original ivory-tower \u2013 which has\nbecome by now but mixed-up mumbling?"}, {"text_idx": "#000013", "text": "[2] I would like to add the following here. The mythographer Bkink has commented on the fact that everything existing is a complex combination of \"clockwork systems\" that can be measured\nand analyzed, and \"cloud systems\" that are unpredictable and free-flowing. Furthermore, no-one knows what exactly the \"psyche\" of the Thorlin is, nor how far it extends into the World. He notes\nnevertheless that consciousness is multi-dimensional, uniting aspects that are cultural, experiential, mythological, narrative, physiological, psychological, societal, spiritual, and symbolic.\nAccording to him, the imagination is an organ of nonlocal perception that extends through time and space embracing matter and energy. It was he who realized that one's conceptions are\nsimultaneously mediated and restricted by societal norms and expectations."}, {"text_idx": "#000014", "text": "He alleges that the parts of the subconscious appear under appropriate conditions as independent, shadow-clad personalities to reveal psychological truths. Especially when a group\ninteracts, it is possible to focus the energy to create external thought-forms, the very presence of which serves to upset the mirage that serves as reality, not to mention their words and their\nthoughts. They exist within, and open a pathway to, a place that is ambiguous, transient, slippery, paradoxical, liminal, marginal, anti-structural, and fundamentally illogical. Hovering between\nthis World and the Otherworld, in a space where the normal order fails, they obliterate binary distinctions between opposites which usually appear inconsistent. It is these who blend different\nconcepts, deconstructing the firm boundaries between the real and the unreal, the self and the other."}, {"text_idx": "#000015", "text": "They have characteristics of the Trickster, mixing attributes that are absurd and highly meaningful at the same time, and by being forced by them to appreciate difference you will come to\nabsorb so much at random that it will take lifetimes to comprehend. These entities can possess one and cause metapsychosis, psycho-immunological effects, and symptoms like amnesia, anaesthesia,\nblindness, conversion and somatoform disorders, convulsions, dermatoglyphs, hallucinations, hysteria, paralysis, and stigmata. After all, the body is the chief means of self-expression which\nforms the interface between the Two Worlds, and is transformed during the performances. The Imagineers of the Grove Illumed have developed psycho-energetic principles to study these phenomena\nthrough biofeedback, electromyography, electroencephalography, and skin-resistance measurement. \u2014 P.M."}, {"text_idx": "#000016", "text": "[3] I feel it would be useful to adduce this here. One must remember that there are common roots to enchantment, faith, and medicine, and that in \"life-magic\" the Great\nWomen and the Wise Men use word, touch, and emotion to cause changes. Rituals involve artefacts as well as appropriate bodily and symbolic stimuli to cause psycho-physical excitation, generate\nwillingness to suspend disbelief, and promote the instantaneous belief that the performance will succeed. They have the ability to shift attention from every-day reality towards a sense of the\nnuminous, that is unearthly awe arising from perceiving an extensive new perspective on existence that is hugely mysterious. Repeating the patterns stimulates a synergism between the\nconsciousness of the participants and external force-fields and thus makes the effects more likely to occur."}, {"text_idx": "#000017", "text": "Such practices can be very efficacious. The participants need to accept the suggestions, and one must bust a gut whilst performing in order to create a \"virtual universe.\" Then, one must take\nthe experiences seriously and embrace the anomalous happenings which are an important part of daily life for very many mystics, healers, shamans, and visionaries throughout the Wondrous World,\ncarrying on working without worrying whether they are \"real\" or not. The striking outcomes such as transformational emotional responses are much more important that the details of the process\nitself. They can be extremely unusual, exceptionally strange, absurd even, and almost unbelievable, but they are true nevertheless. After all, there is no call for Nature to play according to the\nrules of the games that we, the Thorlin, indulge in (as the pre-eminent paranthropologist Rilfoh says), is there? \u2014 P.M."}, {"text_idx": "#000018", "text": "[4] I discovered a while ago that D.B.P. was creating secret stories about the \u201cTwduhl\u201d family, and especially the Pa\u0301hdnuh (\u201cHyw Chimni\u0301\u201d), the Ma\u0301htuh (Unlivin Belpul), the Fy\u0301lya\u0301 (Sili\u0301-nini\u0301), and the \u201cJeminayz\u201d\n(Jehfndum and Shay-boy). They speak an experimental language called \u201cGbumzic\u201d that distinguishes between living things (the \u201cpawsic\u201d class) and everything else (the \u201cswapic\u201d class). This makes them sound very strange and behave even more oddly!"}, {"text_idx": "#000020", "text": "E: man, everything, civilization [Dr P]; \u0394: woman, individual, river, sea [Mrs G]; \u228f: write, shame, sham, staff [Steff]; \u039b: labour, boast, love, kill, die [Dai]; S: snake, knowledge, lies\n[Jack]; \u22a4: son, sword, king, sad [Elfan]; \u22a2: daughter, mother, love, ice, battle, gaze [Helen]; \u03a7: combine, separate, tale, repeat [Fred]; \u25fb: death, life, story, cycle [Gertrude]."}, {"text_idx": "#000022", "text": "[5] Well. D.B.P. always was an old windbag. But, I\u2019ll say it to you straight:\nFine words. Parsnips. Butter! And in response, I shall share here a portion of my unpublished notes: \u201cHow is the Reality of Death Even Possible? A logophilic foundation.\u201d (The ideas came to me\nafter having a skinful of the old \u201cGland-grease\u201d \u2013 a fiercely sour but really rather special potion concocted by Fred \u2013 trying to avoid the cauldron-visions. What hateful irony!)."}, {"text_idx": "#000026", "text": "Ere you depart and till we meet again, perhaps, chew on this. Is it necessary that this\nsick cycle come to and end somhowerwen, releasing us from our bondage in the house of time, transition, trauma and transfiguration? But, regardless of that, in the meantime it is you who shall\ndecide your own fate (well at least it is not I who\u2019ll do that). Let me share with you, at least, what I have unearthed for myself: a memory of the future, a dream of the past, or a reflection of"}, {"text_idx": "#000033", "text": "\u201cAnd I say this: Heed me now! The heart of art is not truth but creation, and I alone\nhave wrought the rules of my own artifice. I have refused to travel in luxury in the six-chambered coach, and have turned a deaf ear to the futile promises of the diabolus of the mute dead who possesses almost everyone. I demand that you give me this instant what I have won!\u201d"}, {"text_idx": "#000037", "text": "Annwyl gyfeillion y Clinig! Ni fyddwn yn gorliwio pe dywedwn mai trin cysgodion yw fy ngalwedigaeth, fy mhroffesiwn, a\u2019m pleser. O ran y sefyllfa a adroddir yma, rwy\u2019n gallu dweud i sicrwydd y\ndeniff cysgodion hirion y pinwydd fel bysedd duon creulon o ffiniau'r blanhigfa [1]. A dyna heb so\u0302n am yr amrywiaeth helaeth o leisiau rhyfedd fydd yn hwylio trwy fy swyddfa sylweddol yma yn\nNeuadd y Murluniau o bryd i\u2019w gilydd. Ac nid rhaid dweud mai lle a\u0302 phob cyfleuster priodol ydy hwn hefyd."}, {"text_idx": "#000038", "text": "Peth ofnadwy ydy y bydd rhaid inni gloi ein drysau maes o law o ddiffyg cyllid ar o\u0302l marwolaeth ein noddwr hael ond anhysbys, yr Hen Filwr. Fe ddiflannodd pan oeddwn yn blentyn, ac am\nflynyddoedd crwydrai ef mewn gwledydd dros y mo\u0302r, gan ymuno a\u0302\u2019r fyddin (mae\u2019n dweud), a theithio i bedwar ban byd i ddarganfod, neu ddyfeisio, gwybodaeth arloesol ynghylch hud geiriau a\ncherddoriaeth swynol. A thrwy\u2019r amser, tra oedd ef i ffwrdd, roeddwn innau\u2019n llafurio ac astudio, gan geisio cael deupen llinyn ynghyd. Teg dweud bod lleisiau wastad yn galw arno oddi mewn ac\noddi allan, i gyflawni cryn ryfeddodau, yn ei farn o leiaf."}, {"text_idx": "#000041", "text": "Yn y ddogfen hon rwy\u2019n cyflwyno adroddiad llawn ar ein hachos mwyaf enwog, yn cynnwys popeth a drafodwyd ac ysgrifennwyd yn ein Clinig, yn ogystal ag adysgrifau o sawl sgwrs a ddigwyddodd\nyma. Yr wyf wedi ymbleseru hefyd mewn cynnwys rhai nodiadau esboniadol ar ben pob adran gan fy ysgrifennydd, Helen Grossmann MSc (y \u2018darpar feddyliaethydd\u2019 yn o\u0302l ei geiriau ei hunan). Mae hi wedi\ndarparu ar fy nghyfer rybuddion a syniadau eithriadol o gynorthwyol ar nifer o bynciau hanfodol. Yng ngoleuni\u2019r sylwadau plaen hyn, mae arnaf angen eich hysbysu o\u2019r dechrau fod ein dulliau\nsyncretaidd, sy\u2019n seiliedig ar freuddwydio a dychmygu, yn debycach i farddoni ac i fwrw hud nag i dechnegau rhesymegol gwyddoniaeth. Yma, personoliaethau amryfal, tirweddau wedi\u2019u torri, a llif\nyr ymwybod, yw\u2019r peth arferol [3]."}, {"text_idx": "#000042", "text": "Yn wir, mae sawl cymeriad yn yr adroddiad hwn, yn o\u0302l pob ymddangosiad. Yn bendant, bydd y penodau\u2019n portreadu amryw leisiau\u2019n cynnwys eiddo ddau lanc, merch, athro, tad a mam, milwr,\ncythraul, baban yn y groth, darlledwr teledol, meddyg, pyramid neu sigwrat, a bodolaethau o\u2019r tu hwnt. Fe\u2019u trefnwyd mewn modd sy\u2019n gyffelyb i batrwm mathemahudol hadau yn yr amryw fathau o\nbigyrnau benyw, gan ymdroelli o foth gyffredin i greu gwrthrych arallfydol a hypnotaidd. Gwna\u0302nt i gyd a\u0302 gwe astrus, ym mha le y byddant yn chwarae rhan tarddleoedd sy\u2019n bwrw goleuni ar ei gilydd,\nwrth greu cysgodion ar yr un pryd."}, {"text_idx": "#000043", "text": "Yn yr adroddiad hwn, felly, bydd enwau\u2019n dod i\u2019r golwg a mynd o\u2019r golwg yn gyson. Wrth gwrs yn yr Hen Lyfr, pan ofyn Tho-vi\u0301tha \u201cBeth yw dy enw?\", etyb y cythraul Az-mothus, i ddechrau, \"Lleng yw fy enw; am fod llawer ohonom.\u201d (A sylwer ar yr hyn a ddigwyddodd iddo fe a'i frodyr a'i\nchwiorydd yn y pendraw: aethant i ymdrybaeddu mewn trythyllwch ar y Cyfandir Deheuol!) Ar adegau (neu, mewn rhai lleoedd), ceir Daud, Stjepan, Jelena, ac Ivan \u2013 yn\nrhywle arall, dyna Dave (Dai), Steffan (Steff, Stezza), Elen, a Jack \u2013 a hefyd, fe gwrddwch a\u0302 David, Stevie, Helen, a John. Hyd yn hyn, yr wyf wedi bod yn so\u0302n am gysgodion, lleisiau, ac enwau\u2019n\nwir; ond rwy\u2019n petruso ynghylch siarad am ddiawliaid yn y cnawd, er gwaethaf yr holl helbul i\u2019w drafod (yn ogystal a\u0302\u2019r daioni). Mater ichi yw derbyn neu beidio a yw'r fath bethau'n bodoli mewn"}, {"text_idx": "#000047", "text": "Mae cyfeirio yma (yn aml yn wallus) ar achlysuron, at ffynonellau llenyddol, ac at ddiwylliant poblogaidd, ond nid wyf wedi ceisio egluro: cysgodion y peth go iawn, allem ddweud, yw\u2019r\ncamgymeriadau a hepgoriadau. Hefyd, mae ychydig iaith fras, rwy wedi\u2019i adael yn gyfan, er mwyn cyflawnder: pwy sydd a\u0302 hawl i roi taw ar y llwyth o leisiau a fydd yn cyfathrebu yma, p\u2019un a fyddant\nyn goeth ai ynteu\u2019n aflednais? A pha beth yw llefaru heddiw beth bynnag ond cysgod gwelw'r canu hudol a fodolai gyfnod Tw\u0302r Biblael \u2013 y tw\u0302r ifori cysefin hwnnw \u2013 sydd wedi dod bellach yn ddim ond"}, {"text_idx": "#000052", "text": "Mae ganddynt nodweddion y Twyllwr, yn cymysgu priodoleddau sy'n absw\u0301rd ac ystyrlon iawn ar yr un pryd, a thrwy gael eich gorfodi i werthfawrogi gwahaniaeth ganddynt y dewch i amsugno cymaint\ntrwy hap a damwain, y cymer fywydau i'w ddirnad. Yn aml byddant yn benthyg eu gwedd gan y mythau'n rhedeg yr ymennydd heb yn wybod inni. Gall yr endidau hyn feddiannu dyn ac achosi metaseicosis,\neffeithiau seiconiwroimiwnolegol, a symptomau fel amnesia, anaesthesia, anhwylderau trosi a somatoffurf, confylsiynau, dallineb, dermatoglyffau, hysteria, parlys, rhithweledigaethau, a stigma\u0302u.\nWedi'r cwbl, y prif ddull o hunanfynegiant ydy'r corff sy'n ffurfio'r rhyngwyneb rhwng y Ddau Fyd, ac yn cael ei drawsffurfio yn ystod y perfformiadau. Mae Tybwyr y Llwyn Goleuedig wedi datblygu\negwyddorion seico-egni\u0308eg i astudio'r ffenomenau hyn trwy fioadborth, electromyograffeg, electroenceffalograffeg, a mesuro gwrthiant y croen. \u2014 P.M."}, {"text_idx": "#000054", "text": "Gall y fath ymarferion fod yn effeithiol iawn. Bydd angen parodrwydd ar y cyfranogwyr i dderbyn yr awgrymiadau, a bydd yn rhaid i ddyn fwrw bogail wrth berfformio er mwyn creu \"bydysawd\nrithiol.\" Wedyn, dylai gymryd y profiadau o ddifrif a chofleidio'r digwyddiadau anomalaidd sy'n rhan bwysig o fywyd beunyddiol i lawer o gyfrinyddion, iachawyr, siamaniaid, a gweledyddion ledled\ny Byd Rhyfeddol, gan ddal ati i weithredu heb boeni a ydynt yn \"real\" neu beidio. Mae'r canlyniadau trawiadol fel ymatebion emosiynol trawsffurfiannol yn fwy pwysig o lawer na manylion y broses\nei hun. Gallant fod yn dra anarferol, eithriadol o rhyfedd, absw\u0301rd hyd yn oed, a bron yn anghredadwy, ond byddant yn wir serch hynny. Wedi'r cyfan, nid oes raid i Natur chwarae yn unol a\u0302\nrheolau'n ge\u0302m ni'r Thorlin (fel y dweud y paranthropolegwr heb ei hafal Rilfoh), on'd oes? \u2014 P.M."}, {"text_idx": "#000055", "text": "[4] Nes i ddarganfod beth amser yn o\u0302l fod D.B.P. yn sgrifennu straeon yn y dirgel am y teulu \u201cTwduhl,\u201d ac yn enwedig y Pa\u0301hdnuh (\u201cHyw\nChimni\u0301\u201d), y Ma\u0301htuh (Unlivin Belpul), y Fy\u0301lya\u0301 (Sili\u0301-nini\u0301), a\u2019r \u201cJeminayz\u201d (Jehfndum a\nShay-boy). Maen nhw\u2019n siarad iaith arbrofol o\u2019r enw \u201cGbumzic\u201d sy\u2019n gwahaniaethu rhwng pethau byw (y dosbarth \u201cpawsic\u201d) a phopeth arall (y dosbarth \u201cswapic\u201d). Mae hyn yn neud iddyn nhw swnio\u2019n od ar y naw ac yn bihafio\u2019n rhyfeddach"}, {"text_idx": "#000057", "text": "E: dyn, popeth, gwareiddiad [Dr P]; \u0394: menyw, unigolyn, afon, mo\u0302r [Mrs G]; \u228f: ysgrifennu, cywilydd, twyll, ffon [Steff]; \u039b: llafur, brolio, caru, lladd, marw [Dai]; S: sarff, gwybodaeth,\ncelwyddau [Jack]; \u22a4: mab, cleddyf, brenin, trist [Elfan]; \u22a2: merch, mam, serch, ia\u0302, brwydr, golwg [Helen]; \u03a7: cyfuno, gwahanu, hanes, ailadrodd [Ffred]; \u25fb: marw, byw, adrodd, cylchred"}, {"text_idx": "#000058", "text": "Mae\u2019r glyffiau\u2019n debyg iawn i rai ymresymu haniaethol. Fodd bynnag, o\u2019m rhan i, fe fyddwn i\u2019n rhagdybio ei fod yn ceisio eu trin nhw mewn rhyw ymarfer hudol i reoli\u2019r unigolion a chyflawni ei\nganlyniadau ei hun. Gawn ni weld, sbo. \u2014 P.M."}, {"text_idx": "#000059", "text": "[5] Wel. Hen baldaruwr o\u2019dd D.B.P. bob amser. Ond fi ddwediff wrthoch chi\u2019n blaen: Ni lenwir cylla gwag a\u0302 geiriau teg! Ac mewn\nymateb, fe rannaf fi yma ddarn o\u2019n nodiadau anghyhoeddedig i: \u201cSut mae Realiti Marw\u2019n Bosibl Hyd yn Oed? Sylfaen logoffilig.\u201d (Daeth y syniadau ata i ar o\u0302l cael llond \u2018ngwala ar \u2018rhen \u201cSaim\nChwarren\u201d \u2013 diod dra sur ei flas ond yn eitha sbesial ei heffeithiau, wedi\u2019i dyfeisio gan Ffred \u2013 wrth drio osgoi gweledigaethau\u2019r crochan. Gased yr eironi!)."}, {"text_idx": "#000064", "text": "Rwyf fi, y crwydrwr ar gyrion bodolaeth yn nesa\u0301u at Deml Lethi\u0301 nad ydy\u2019n bodoli yn ein Byd ni, ar lannau nant sain. Tri symbol hir anghofiedig\nsy\u2019n addurno ei hwaliau \u2013 S E \u0394 \u2013 un mewn pren, un mewn carreg ac un mewn pres."}, {"text_idx": "#000068", "text": "\u201cDych chi wedi galw arna i: Dyma fi. O\u2019m bodd dof fi,\u201d bloeddiaf fi ar yr awyr derfysglyd. \u201cNage gwisgo cochl tywyllwch amdana i dw i, nac wedi\n\u2018ngwarchod gan sarff asgellog. Yn y Byd Amgen yr honnid taw cachgi llechwraidd o\u2019n i. Felly i \u2018mhrofi fy hunan fe ddysges i reidio \u2018ngheffyl wysg \u2018nghefn, ac achub ar bob cyfle i dyfu a ffynnu\u2019n\ngastiog. Bellach dw i wedi gadael ar o\u0302l y bywyd atgas \u2018na yn y garthffos lygredig gyda\u2019r moch rheibus.\u201d"}, {"text_idx": "#000073", "text": "Synhwyro, ceisio, cipio: llyncu a phechu. Achub? Yr unig chwedl. Defas, campwyr, taeogion, diafoliaid, duwiau. Geiriau, hyd yn oes oesoedd. Ein ffafwlan-ddweud yn ffyddlon-ddyrnu ni. \u2014"}]