<transcript><audio_19>thinking spre and sex spre and anger spre and fear spre and I'm acting out and my behavior is very inappropriate to someone who claims to be on a spiritual path but my ego will justify all in appropriate behavior make it very appropriate because it's me and I'm a</transcript><transcript><audio_20>star and it's okay for me to do but don't you do it and we'll sponsor men we'll sponsor women say make sure you do this as soon as they leave our house we go do just the opposite and as the reemergence of the ego the illness never went away and if</transcript><transcript><audio_21>I'm still doing something it's not old Behavior it's very current behavior and the ego will step right in and defend it so for me it has been about regardless of how long I'm sober is</transcript><transcript><audio_22>about diving into this work at least once a year going through the work dismantling the ego hopefully experiencing further death to self for successful living and finally get free free of self free of attachments to</transcript><transcript><audio_23>other things and that's the great thing we can do in alcoholic synonymous uh those of us around here while we look at um unmanageability in the first step and think that applies just to the drink and the longer you're around it really doesn't apply to a</transcript><transcript><audio_24>drinking it's always about the drink but it's about other things what's my current unmanageability look like what am I experiencing now it's giv me disease and comfort even though I'm not</transcript> thinking spre and sex spre and anger spre and fear spre and I'm acting out and my behavior is very inappropriate to someone who claims to be on a spiritual path but my ego will justify all in appropriate behavior make it very appropriate because it's me and I'm a star and it's okay for me to do but don't you do it and we'll sponsor men we'll sponsor women say make sure you do this as soon as they leave our house we go do just the opposite and as the reemergence of the ego the illness never went away and if I'm still doing something it's not old Behavior it's very current behavior and the ego will step right in and defend it so for me it has been about regardless of how long I'm sober is about diving into this work at least once a year going through the work dismantling the ego hopefully experiencing further death to self for successful living and finally get free free of self free of attachments to other things and that's the great thing we can do in alcoholic synonymous uh those of us around here while we look at um unmanageability in the first step and think that applies just to the drink and the longer you're around it really doesn't apply to a drinking it's always about the drink but it's about other things what's my current unmanageability look like what am I experiencing now it's giv me disease and comfort even though I'm not
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