<transcript><audio_61>Despair and when I'm going a place of Despair it's an extreme form of me it's extreme form of self and despair what happens with that my pride and ego will refuse to ask you for help it loves</transcript><transcript><audio_62>it so when I'm feeling I've lost my way I'm I'm dis I'm despair oh my God what am I going to do I'm full of me and I'm of no use to anyone and the pride an ego will step in the way and say do not ask for help just stay where you are and some of us even enjoy that kind of thing</transcript><transcript><audio_63>I got some drama going on some of us will will ask for help and we start to walk through the steps this has been my experience going through the steps and somewhere in there that</transcript><transcript><audio_64>self-pity that despair started to drift away and what I felt was a purpose and why God got me SOA a purpose in AA a purpose in my life some direction in my life and little by slowly turned back to the same power that I curse I started to</transcript><transcript><audio_65>lose the idea of I need things to keep me happy a man is rich not by the things he can buy but by the things he can live without and through adversity we will learn to live without things that we thought we</transcript><transcript><audio_66>needed and as I start to wake up little by slowly I start to see how all my I don't need anything I found I don't need anything on a spir in a spiritual life I don't need anything on a</transcript> Despair and when I'm going a place of Despair it's an extreme form of me it's extreme form of self and despair what happens with that my pride and ego will refuse to ask you for help it loves it so when I'm feeling I've lost my way I'm I'm dis I'm despair oh my God what am I going to do I'm full of me and I'm of no use to anyone and the pride an ego will step in the way and say do not ask for help just stay where you are and some of us even enjoy that kind of thing I got some drama going on some of us will will ask for help and we start to walk through the steps this has been my experience going through the steps and somewhere in there that self-pity that despair started to drift away and what I felt was a purpose and why God got me SOA a purpose in AA a purpose in my life some direction in my life and little by slowly turned back to the same power that I curse I started to lose the idea of I need things to keep me happy a man is rich not by the things he can buy but by the things he can live without and through adversity we will learn to live without things that we thought we needed and as I start to wake up little by slowly I start to see how all my I don't need anything I found I don't need anything on a spir in a spiritual life I don't need anything on a
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