<transcript><audio_216>endorse all of that I'll start the steps next week I'm going to go to this big book I'll start the steps next week I never left a little bit of a liquor in a</transcript><transcript><audio_217>right your drink now forget about tomorrow we're drinking now drink it all now we'll go out and steal to get money to continue drinking but right now we are drinking and what we tend to do some of us do in AAS I will get it tomorrow I'll start now I'll finish next week I</transcript><transcript><audio_218>got I'm going on vacation I'll finish my four step when I get back I me I hear these things it's bizarre and then we die so I you know concede to my innermost self I take a look at my powerlessness my lack of power Choice</transcript><transcript><audio_219>control my unmanageability with the drink and my current unmanageability sober in alcoholic synonymous if the real unmanageability is not having an idea what the day is going to look like when a drink says go drink and I go drink and I can't stop</transcript><transcript><audio_220>it and I won't even have the ability to run to my home group to say I want to drink please help me because I probably get drunk on the way to my home group that's how I drink no human power could leave me on my alcoholism that's not only the drink it's alcoholism the stump that</transcript><transcript><audio_221>accompanies alcoholism my self is self-centered self-seeking ways my pride and my ego all of it because we know just removing the drink doesn't mean I'm much</transcript><transcript><audio_222>better when I got into AA in 1988 after 90 days I was not sponsorship material I was still sick untreated alcoholic how I got here tonight is truly a miracle I should have been drunk 50 times already in early</transcript> endorse all of that I'll start the steps next week I'm going to go to this big book I'll start the steps next week I never left a little bit of a liquor in a right your drink now forget about tomorrow we're drinking now drink it all now we'll go out and steal to get money to continue drinking but right now we are drinking and what we tend to do some of us do in AAS I will get it tomorrow I'll start now I'll finish next week I got I'm going on vacation I'll finish my four step when I get back I me I hear these things it's bizarre and then we die so I you know concede to my innermost self I take a look at my powerlessness my lack of power Choice control my unmanageability with the drink and my current unmanageability sober in alcoholic synonymous if the real unmanageability is not having an idea what the day is going to look like when a drink says go drink and I go drink and I can't stop it and I won't even have the ability to run to my home group to say I want to drink please help me because I probably get drunk on the way to my home group that's how I drink no human power could leave me on my alcoholism that's not only the drink it's alcoholism the stump that accompanies alcoholism my self is self-centered self-seeking ways my pride and my ego all of it because we know just removing the drink doesn't mean I'm much better when I got into AA in 1988 after 90 days I was not sponsorship material I was still sick untreated alcoholic how I got here tonight is truly a miracle I should have been drunk 50 times already in early
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