<transcript><audio_36>going practice in anger in great intensity what would you tell yourself about the kind of practice you're doing now and like what do you wish she had known as she was starting to discover those practices i was just thinking about this the other day that's a great question um i</transcript><transcript><audio_37>honestly think that that younger version of myself would have thought what i'm doing now is a bunch of nonsense um i'm pretty sure like when i was when i first started i thought you were doing like hyper focused concentration</transcript><transcript><audio_38>to get to enlightenment or you were just wasting your time so like anyone who was having any fun at all in their practice um anyone who was doing something different from what i was doing with that confidence that you can sort of only have when you're like</transcript><transcript><audio_39>20 you know this is it i'm right you're wrong everyone should be doing exactly this you know this thing put it in the tap water kind of thing and um so i think there's almost there's almost nothing right now that i think i could</transcript><transcript><audio_40>tell myself back to i think i would just give and tell her like you know all this is optional like you don't actually have to be so mean to yourself but i don't know if she would actually</transcript> going practice in anger in great intensity what would you tell yourself about the kind of practice you're doing now and like what do you wish she had known as she was starting to discover those practices i was just thinking about this the other day that's a great question um i honestly think that that younger version of myself would have thought what i'm doing now is a bunch of nonsense um i'm pretty sure like when i was when i first started i thought you were doing like hyper focused concentration to get to enlightenment or you were just wasting your time so like anyone who was having any fun at all in their practice um anyone who was doing something different from what i was doing with that confidence that you can sort of only have when you're like 20 you know this is it i'm right you're wrong everyone should be doing exactly this you know this thing put it in the tap water kind of thing and um so i think there's almost there's almost nothing right now that i think i could tell myself back to i think i would just give and tell her like you know all this is optional like you don't actually have to be so mean to yourself but i don't know if she would actually
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