 the it yeah how can you have fun with it what's the it you're talking about well i feel like you're creating beauty i think that's the it or love or you know some kind of um reality i don't know some some some kind of concept i don't know there's there's something there's something marvelous or wonderful uh about life itself you know it's the kind of thing that uh you know the buddhists call ineffable or something you can't talk about it that bad it