 This, and this is part of my connection to the book, I will get there, was so, yes, thank you, I'm getting recognized, but also so stressful. And then I had the struggle of like, I don't know that I'm worthy. I developed a rash in my face, which if you're on camera, this is really bad for you because of the anxiety from this. I continued working and then I had some other moments, some videos go viral and it's been...