 The 3 a.m. spiral is a thing. And in fact, I wrote about this in my manuscript for the memoir. Well, it started to be a thing with Brendan too, I guess. I feel like your body just naturally, after you're feeding babies, it just knows that it needs to be up at that time. And so it never really stops, even if you need to sleep desperately. But for me, here's the 3 a.m. spiral, Laura. The 3 a.m. spiral right now is that...