 embody what we've been talking about or things they've been reading I'd just say stick with it stick with it and keep keep listening keep slowing down enough to transition so I think that's what it took for me it took a lot of time to be in the questions and to be in my own frustrations with it and to be a cynic it didn't come quick and it didn't it didn't come when I wanted it to it just I feel like was like a lightning bulk strike where like all of a sudden it was just like whoosh