 So, you know, working with a therapist on that. And then the other piece of it was January of 2022 when I felt like my emotional toolbox is strong. I know now that I need to go. I'm not quite ready, but I have everything and I need to just go away and integrate that. And that's where mindfulness comes in. I also went, I hadn't been back to, I'm a big Pilates person and I do traditional Pilates, but really hard, you know, huffing and puffing, falling off your reformer, dying and