 maybe I'm a little bit more mindful than I used to be and I'm going to the gym a little bit so maybe that's helpful but at the time I think I was just very stressed out stressed out with my commute and I just it was almost a welcome relief for somebody to say you want to step outside sure why not we're stuck in traffic anyway but obviously that's not mature responsible or anything else so let's talk a little bit about this how did California become number one what are they going through