 Um, so I don't have regret transitioning when I did, but yeah, it's, it's, it's hard to think about, you know, what things could have been like back then, you know, if I was able to be accepted and, and I just, you know, I'm 43 and I knew, you know, in the eighties, in the mid eighties. So I just feel like I would have probably had a really brutal life of being homeschooled and ostracized and,