 between the appearance of death at different times in your life and how you dealt with it. Could you talk a little bit more about your own feelings when you were desperate? Because I think, you know, I certainly, there are times when I thought that I just want to end it all, but I wouldn't do it, you know. So I don't really think, I don't draw a parallel between my thoughts and someone who is really much more serious about thinking about ending their life.