 I couldn't do it anymore. But the thing I realized was that there were things that I loved. And what I loved was Model Magic. I mean, it wasn't that anymore. It was something else. But it was something I could feel. And I wanted to go back to that girl who was five and that girl who was 12. And now I want to go back to that 18-year-old girl. And I want to tell her, you're not stupid.