 get active in my life absolutely but we what we go kicking and screaming always questioning yes is this what he has intended for me what does that intend to be i don't think god has anything intended for me well that's not true or god's abandoned oh yeah i mean all of that we're all there we do that and then we look back and we see oh yeah that's why he was doing that that's why he put that in my life that's why he did this and then we stand there amazed at it right like