 right here could be sitting there with me and I'd play it off and I'd get up like we can watch something that someone rescued somebody out of a fire and it was having to be a cat still in there they went in there and got the cat you know and I just start like just like bawling but I'd be like excuse me and I go and I play it off all tough you know I'd be in the bathroom I was like what is going on with me you know saying God was dealing with me and then