 Only pity, you know what I mean? Like pity, just weeping, like, oh my God, what did I do? But then it was, it changed when they finally got me to my cell and I sat there and it changed and it turned into more of now was like weeping to be delivered from all this mess. And I, and I was tired of losing, you know, like God has something bigger for you. And I always knew this like inside.