 And I'm not necessarily saying that I understand it in my essays. Right. Because I think that would be wow. Right. I think what I want to say is that this was my experience. Let me write about it and express it to you. Let me talk about the competing dynamics that I see in terms of myself as individual and the larger structures. And then maybe by writing about it, by talking about it, I can have what some type of utility for someone else to maybe help in their experience. Right.