 Um, I'm getting a little emotional, so I, um, I'm in my early forties. Um, I've been in a long-term relationship and my boyfriend is not sure if he wants a baby and I, I want a baby and I'm, I'm running out of time. And my question is, I don't know if I should, um, take out loans to be able to even just start the process and afford like egg retrievals, or if I should get a second job.