 uh the you know president trump who's who's my president right and i have a close personal relationship with him so i felt really helpless to see that happen and not be able to jump up on the stage and uh and render aid you know so uh that was my first thing just overwhelming sense of helplessness but then you know once i saw him get up and i was also worried because you know when they when he went down he didn't get up right away and you know you you know uh