 And I ran back to my cell and I just gave God an ultimatum. I said, Lord, if you're real, and I didn't even use the word Lord because I didn't understand that neither. I said, God, if you're real, either have somebody kill me or change me because I don't want to live with the pain that I'm living like anymore. So I guess it was a cry for help, a despair cry for help. And God answered those prayers, man. I'm here today talking about it.