 and you set yourself up because so you don't want to be disappointed so i got like a 60 on and you get a 92 and you're like oh my god i did great and and it's that way it's like well nothing's going to change and then when it does the exuberance is real rather than having a sense of exuberance going into something and then being disappointed so i think there is some of that that affects our psyche that we in politics is a long-term game of victories and losses it is