 and start crying like a baby and I'd be sitting there with people like my brother right here could be sitting there with me and I'd play it off and I'd get up. Like we could watch something that someone rescued somebody out of a fire and it happened to be a cat still in there and they went in there and got the cat, you know? And I'd just start like, just like bawling but I'd be like, excuse me and I'd go and I'd play it off all tough, you know? I'd be in the bathroom and I was like, what is going on with me?