 my husband left and went to my sister and brother-in-law's house and just fell apart because he thought that was the last time he was going to see me. It was just, it was horrific. What was your, how would you characterize your, your faith in God at this point? Were you a Bible believing Christian or what was your faith? I have always been a person of faith, but I will be honest with you, Richard, when I got that diagnosis,