 and so that that is kind of why i joined the service again i'd love to say it was a patriotic thing but it was really out of necessity and it was really um out of a desire to have something different and really the first step in my life where i stepped back and i said okay i have to take ownership of what's going on and i i thank my dad to this day for for helping me with that i didn't like him very much at the time as you can imagine i understand what did you do in the army