 So I had a lot of experience, and then with my military experience on top of that, you know, I had a lot of respect from my peers because of everything that I've been through and done to where whenever I spoke, people listened. And I had a lot of respect from everybody. So the fact that, you know, I was off, I felt horrible because I was off on the side sitting on the curb when I should have been one of the ones helping the guys out, but I just couldn't do it.