 that there wasn't room for anything else. And I didn't even realize at the time I had a fear of death until one day I just looked up from my notes and I'm like, well, I know one thing. I'm not afraid of dying. All I care about is this book. It's kind of like happiness. It's just, you know, the thing you did in calligraphy for me, Katie, which was your version of embroidering a pillow with one of my sayings, but...