 And so it was hard to believe, but I kept standing on that. But I will tell you this. I've always asked God if I ever went through something horrific, would I be like Job's wife and say, just curse God and die? Or would I die with my faith intact? And I was grateful that in real time, I was able to see that I would die with my faith intact. Because even though I felt I was leaving this world, I didn't blame God. I wasn't angry. I was just surrendering myself.