 of it. Right. And, and said, Hey, I've seen things I'm, I'm going to be honest with myself. Is, is this what happened? You said there's some truth out here. I got to figure it out. And it's okay if I jump off of the 10 year bandwagon or what, what? Yeah. Okay. So I think the last part of what you said is the trigger for all of it, which is first figuring out I'm going to be okay. So I was in the middle of a bunch of life changes, you know, forties happened.