 What am I missing out on by living the way I am right now? And it just all kind of exploded. Did you start to incorporate more rituals? Did that help? No, I did not. Okay, I just thought that was a cool idea. It's really hard to kickstart a ritual on your own. That's actually, that's not true. I have a lot of rituals, but they're more routine, everyday kind of rituals, not...