 trying to stand in faith, and people had come over and prayed with me, and some had even said, I'm going to be healed. But I didn't know that. I wanted to believe that, but what I was looking at in the mirror was contradictory to what they were saying. And so it was hard to believe, but I kept standing on that. But I will tell you this. I've always asked God if I ever went through something horrific, would I be like...