 Something in me changed, and I don't know, I can't remember if you can explain it, but something in me changed, and I was no longer the same guy, and I was trying desperately using willpower to be the guy I was before all this stuff happened. Was that a good way of explaining it for you? Yeah. You know, I tell my kids often that you become a product of your environment, right? So when you're around, for us, when we're around this violence and this destruction and death and whatever,