 Before we break loose, we're talking about all these things that kind of propelled your career in law enforcement and the reasons why. And I get it. I agree. One thing that I was saying was I knew what I signed up for, but at the same time, I didn't realize the impact it would have on me emotionally, mentally, physically. I didn't realize the impact it would have on my daughters, my first marriage, all that other stuff. And other people are important to me. You kind of stumbled on that years after retiring, didn't you?