 in New York City for work on a regular basis. And I'm not, so I feel like a failure. And the more time that goes by that that is not the case, I feel like a bigger failure. And this is not the track I want to be on, and I don't know what to do about it. Man, I don't know either. If I could figure out how to get you to stop feeling like a failure, I would have done it a long time ago. That's been one of my quiet grand quests of my life, too. And I feel kind of sad that I haven't been able to.