 Like, it surprised me, but I didn't have like that, oh, crap, I can't believe I'm about to do this. Like, you hear a lot of times where someone tries to commit suicide and it doesn't work, and they're like, oh, my goodness, I can't believe I did this. I didn't feel that way. Like, it went click. I was like, no, I'm doing this. I don't want to feel this way anymore. And I was trying to take the easy way out. I get that.