 I began to ruin her life. Ruin everything. It's just a mess. So I'm telling you this, I had to live this. I had to walk it out. And it would be nice if somebody could just lay hands on you and you fall into the power and you wake up and you say, wow, everything's perfect now. Woo-hoo, I should have had you lay hands on me a long time ago. But I mean, that's not how this works.