 Come to find out, the medications I was on, every time I'd go to my pharmacist, she would say, are you okay? And after 10 years, I had a clear moment when she asked me once again, how am I? You've been asking me that for so long. Is there something I need to know? She sat me down and she said, you're going to want to sit down for this. And the medications I was on magnified the pain, the anxiety, the anger, depression, suicidal thoughts times 10.