 the process of decision-making when you know that every decision could end up getting you killed, no matter what you do, you don't know what is going to be the thing. Do you flee? Do you stay? Do you try to go North? Do you stay where you are? And just, she describes the process of trying to make that momentous decision. Um, and it's just, it's just devastating. It's, it's absolutely devastating. So, uh,