 It's a scary thing. Well, you know, it requires, it requires so much truth telling and access to hard things and, you know, so, and then, and sharing it with the world. So, yeah, no, I, I think the first thing I ever wanted was to write books long before I got into TV and film. And I kind of pointed myself in the direction of it. And I had, I had this really, you know, I was a TV, a TV exec at Paramount for years, as you said. And, um,