 Correct. I'm going to beat myself up. You feel sorry for yourself. Right. Right. Yeah. But no, I will say because, yeah, I'm in flying around private jets, Nicaragua, everything, alcohol, this, that or the other. And I do I do honestly believe that if I indulge in booze too much or if I do this and I do that, I'm just not I'm not the same guy. I don't even think my creative output is the same. What the hell was Nicaragua all about?