 I started to feel like my time was running out and, and this was the one thing for me that if I didn't do before I died, I was going to, I was, that would be my one regret, my biggest regret. And so I, I understand from making TV and film for me, a community works, a writing cup, like a creative community is what I really need. And, um, I had the beginnings of one when I was still working in television. I, I, uh,