 thought about throwing himself off a bridge when he was being transported between prisons. And I started to hear of others who struggled with these dark thoughts. And Haralan Popov, who was a prisoner in Bulgaria, and just wanted them to pull the trigger. Helen Rosevere, who went through very traumatic experiences in Congo as a missionary. And again, they have a gun to her head, and she's saying, oh God, let them pull the trigger.