 And so I said, no, I'm responsible. I mean, they're responsible for what they did. I'm not going to take, I'm not Hercules, you know, but I was responsible for my place in there. And I examined that at length and realized, yes, there was a conspiracy of events that took place like a game of chess that got me to that position. And I learned a lot from it. I needed to be booted in the, can I say the three letter A word?