 Soon after I reached Hagerstown, I found an apartment in a government project. My furniture amounted to a cot, a crib, a pallet on the floor, and two dressers. Because I was away at work on my two jobs most of the time, I had to have babysitters almost around the clock. From three in the morning until eight, I slept. From eight until noon, I tried to be a mother. If that description of my life sounds self-sacrificing, don't believe it. I was really a very selfish person.