 it's harder. That's right. That's right. Right. So, so that was my first writing community. And I think, and, and, you know, I, I still, it took, it took many more years for me to decide to go back to, to grad school. But that was, I, I just, I, I, you know, I wanted to, I wanted to be surrounded in that, in that kind of, I just remembered like being in academia and what that, what that did for me. And, and,