 in this gray area throughout the mall, you know, and where do I find my place? And I think especially after he passed, I think I was more in that gray area of like, should I be here? And there's a lot of other stuff that was happening within that first year. And so, you know, just, you know, stacked up. But so I think, yeah, that transition was definitely weird and definitely made me question that I even want to stay at home. But I think