 Your husband, even as he was in ministry, was wrestling with some of these things. But in the middle of ministry, when you're pastoring, it's impossible to really sort of get to the root of some of this stuff. You might have these questions, you know, sort of like that rock in your shoe that is always there and kind of bothering you. And, you know, you just haven't taken it out yet. You haven't taken your shoes off, that kind of thing. I know that there are people, there are pastors who...