 But I was trying to serve the Lord, doing what I thought he wanted me to do and honoring him and preaching the gospel and getting people to Jesus. And then you come home and find that that has happened. And it just hit me. I said, oh, I've been doing my best for God and now this. And the unspoken thing was, I don't think I deserve this. Well, I felt that way for a period of hours. And then I turned to God.