 In her dream, Jill eagerly thrust her cross of sorrow into Jesus' hands and picked up a cross that looked small and light. But it was as heavy as lead. Oh, Lord, Jill said, why is this cross so small and yet so heavy? Jesus said, that is a cross of a young girl who is a cripple. She knows she will always be a bed-fast cripple. She lies and will lie in hospital all her life.