 Would you say that sitting here with me now, that trauma is still very real within you? It wasn't an easy book to write, and it wasn't meant to be easy to read. The point here, though, is that I wanted to get my own thoughts clear on those two questions, what had happened and why, and what sense could I make of it, but also to try and make a bit of a contribution to a broader understanding of what that episode meant for us.