 And I was allowing all of that weight and all of that pain and all of that sadness to literally destroy my body. So I went to this guy that he was called a healer. And Jason was with me as well. And he saw it with his own eyes. And I went up to him and he said, what do you need healing for? And I just told him, like, I'm just about paralyzed in my back. I just can't do life anymore. And this is not the way life is meant to be for me. I just know it.