 In many ways, yeah. Yeah, I am, I suppose. It's a bit of a torture also, I think, in the writing process. But characters really do begin to speak to you when you're in that world of really writing them for months and months on end. And suddenly they say the most surprising things that turn the plot. And then you have to go there. You have to follow them down that path, I find. It is a mystery to me how these books are constructed.