 I think that's a lot of what I'm chasing when I write is an escape from the self. I've heard people talk like when they lose a friend or a partner or whatever, that over time they feel like they can't see that person anymore. Like they can't remember that person's face. And that's always been strange to me because I can't remember the person's face ever. You know, like I don't, if I'm not looking at someone, I don't really know