 Writer Katie Booth made sense of why she didn't fight harder to be with him by pointing us to something Helen wrote a few years later. She writes about it in Midstream, her book. I can't imagine a man wanting to marry me. A piece of writing that Elsa had never seen before. I would think it would seem like marrying a statue. It would be a severe handicap for any man to straddle upon him the dead weight of my infirmities.