 I do feel a sense of loss in some places, but I also didn't know about this for almost my entire adulthood. And so I had like 40 years to get used to the way my brain works and to assume that it was natural and normal before I found out I had dyscalculia and I found out I had aphantasia. And that explains a lot. It's helpful to know. So I guess where I would challenge you is maybe it's not...