 and do the kinds of things I needed to do so that I could go back to India and spend the entire rest of my life there, happy. So I was telling her my plan. When she looked at me and she said, well, when you go back to America, you're going to stay there and you're going to start teaching meditation. And I said, no, I'm not. And she said, yes, you are. And I said, no, I'm not. And she said, yes, you are. And I said, no, I'm not. I mean, the thought was ludicrous to me. I didn't feel at all capable.