 And I just, that just like sealed it in. I was, I was very insecure and scared. And, um, I spent most of junior high feeling like that. So no, I never, I never ever thought of myself as beautiful. I like, uh, yeah, I think, I think I somewhere in the next four years tried to find a way to just be in the world and, and comedy ended up, you know, being my thing. Where, how do you think you found that?