 it's so that's so dumb and and so i went home got a yellow pad out put the okay this is what we've got coming in this month this is what we're going to spend every dollar had an assignment you know we we're a christian so we're going to tie that our church that's the first thing we're going to do our generosity then we're going to do this then we're going to do this we're buying food we're going to buy lights we're not doing all this other crap and we're not going out to eat until we've covered these basic walls and we started living that way and