 I was still incredibly scared, and I was scared not only of looking stupid and being a failure and not being up to it, but I was incredibly scared of public speaking. So Joseph, for 30 nights, had to give a talk. And I would sit literally cowering in the back. And what I was most afraid of was that I'd be in front of a group of people, and I'd be in the middle of my talk, and my mind would go completely blank.