 I'd always try and pass like a, like a professional person. Uh, and really when I went back to work sort of in my mid forties, after this period, that was like really rough. I was like, I gotta go back and be, be the person that, that like you see every day, you know, be the person that people see on stage and figure out how to like, how to really be that person in a way that made sense for a day to day. I don't know what that didn't really make much sense there, but.