 And then when he died, I realized there was a great wisdom in that, you know, he played it safe and in that way he was comfortable. So part of sort of being in this headspace of it being never enough and feeling like you deserve more is very uncomfortable. But, you know, that's kind of the cross you bear for, you know, for the chance at glory, I guess, you know, and then that's why you do it or that's why I do it.