 You guys embark on this marriage. You're not too enthusiastic about it, but it was the done thing. And ultra-Orthodox women are expected to have babies, get married, have babies. That's what you do. But for the first two years of your marriage, you don't get pregnant. There's no baby. And you are relieved. It's wonderful. You understand I've been changing diapers and taking care of babies since I was 10 years old.