 And I get really upset. It's like, I go, I haven't, I haven't done my mission yet. I just gotten started. I can't, you can't take me yet. I haven't, I haven't like accomplished what I'm here to do. And I'm like crying. I'm almost screaming in my head about this. And, and I go, I go down another waterfall to the next level. I guess I get off and I see a boat and they're about to pick up my husband and