 oh wow sexualization feels like like a dream literally felt like i was awake in a dream like i was lucid dreaming like i was walking in this uh magical world so for me it was completely awesome and it still is still awesome i'm really like blessed i'm very very very happy to like be in this position and i'm very like you know uh fulfilled and i feel uh that um this is the way it's supposed to be in there this is what i always wanted to be like and i love it so much