 I didn't know what happened exactly, and I have been trying to understand it fully in the life of my country, in my own personal life. The fear came to me later on, many, many days or weeks later. At one point I said, what has happened to me? What have they done to us? They could have killed me. I'm still alive. I'm a survivor. Somebody died in my place. That's one of the worst ideas that have accompanied me