 Say my goodbyes. I would not request something like that unless you were truly ready. You must find me silly to hang on to hope. Not silly, but hope deferred makes the heart sick. I don't want your hope to cause you pain. But I should have... I should have been a better wife to Cuthbert. I don't believe we should hang on to pain because we feel guilty. Nor do I believe one should dwell on past mistakes because... well, because we're unwilling to accept that God has another path for us.