 As I was growing up, you were constantly made to feel that you were the extra, the unwanted. But it was harder, for one thing, that I wasn't pretty, I wasn't fair, I wasn't thin. I didn't fit in with the princess look of the rest of my family. That is a double whammy. To be the girl, but to be the unattractive girl, was hard. And one of the things that has stood by me my whole life is my beautiful sister, who everybody adored. She still bloody looks 10 years younger than me.