 I couldn't sleep. I was pacing my house. I had my baseball bat resting on my shoulder. I was in protector mode. I was constantly thinking to myself, what have I done? Why did I do this interview? My first daughter had just been born. I've put her at risk. I put my wife at risk. It was really a scary moment in life. And it was an all-consuming one. And when your chatter is consuming your attention for a long period of time,