 physical connection was completely lacking. So the times I remember being touched were when, say, I was an asthmatic child and I started to wheeze when we were out on a family walk and my dad put me up on his shoulders. That was a moment of real, like, wonder for me. And so I would fake wheezing whenever I could afterwards, but I think I was quite a bad faker. And then I also suffered from earache and I'd sit on his knee when I took medication.