 And I kept thinking, I'll go back to India a little later. I'll go a little later. As we kept accepting the invitations, and I couldn't speak. And then I remember that in the context of the loving kindness practice, there was a guided meditation. It was sort of a formal meditation. You could lead people through. And I thought, that's it. If my mind goes blank, I'll just go into the guided meditation. And maybe no one will notice that there was that awful gap there for a moment.