 What kind of nervous breakdown was it? Was it depression or psychosis or exhaustion? It was depression. It was exhaustion as well. But my adrenals were tapped out and I had no way to fix that. I didn't know how to fix it. I was worried for my own life. I was convinced that I was HIV positive. There was no way for me to test that at the time. And I wasn't sure that I wanted to be a pop star. I wasn't sure I wanted to be a public figure. I wasn't sure I wanted to be