 And as I'm telling him that I'm putting the sugar and the eggs in one blender and I'm putting the flour and the cinnamon in another bowl and then we're going to combine them and I hand him the apple and he still peels it in one rind and I'm like, okay, maybe he remembers a little bit. And we put it in the oven and it comes out perfectly but the entire time it just doesn't feel the same because even though he's there with me, he's not completely capable of being there like he used to be.