 But they said, treat schizophrenia, but don't let that worry her. But then that was it. That was all it took in my mind. Oh, I've got secret schizophrenia. Why didn't anybody tell me? Of course, many people live with schizophrenia and they can manage the symptoms. But for me, I've never struggled with mental illness before. So I didn't know what that would look like or how I'd cope with that. I just remember being in just absolute shock, thinking, why is this happening?