 incredibly low but none of us get through life without hard moments and grief and loss that's human condition and and i definitely learned going through this that there are a lot of people out there who have some pretty crazy stuff that happens to them medically and there's a common experience when it's out of the blue you're you're you're a little bit at sea for a while i mean she was she went from diagnosis to an 11 hour brain surgery within a couple of weeks and all kinds of things in between and you're just you're just trying to play catch up the whole time