 up in the high country of Colorado, in a place that had a view of Mount Neva. And I was ready for that day to be very hard. And in some ways it was hard. It was the first anniversary of her death. But I woke up that morning and had this beautiful view of the peak and was pretty struck by better feelings than I expected. Kind of this connection to her, connection to who she was, and a kind of, maybe for the first time, a feeling of what you described that, you know what,