 I try hard to do it and I take my time and it just doesn't work out the way I want it to. And it's like I concentrate on it really hard and it just doesn't work out. And everything I do and everything I try just doesn't turn out and it's like I need time, you know, to just figure things out. And there's always someone going, hey Amanda, you know, we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately, you know, maybe you should get away and like maybe you should talk about it. Maybe you feel a lot better.