 deepens the rut in the brain yes that's right and so it's like because i went through bankruptcy lost everything mine is real extreme i have a real this this like freaking grand canyon right to where there's no chance i'm ever going to deviate from it and so you can add to your chances of ever coming back here again uh by trying you know you're more likely to come back into the mess again if you gradually get out because it's not it's not a deep pathway