 And then I had the dilemma of, well, what does the truth mean? Like, what am I going to tell? Because if I just say, well, this is what I did, everyone's going to know there was more to the story than that. There's no way I invented that. And so I struggled with what to do to the point where I finally just was in such a bad place in my head that I didn't really care what else happened. I just decided I'm just going to tell the truth. Here it is. And whatever happens, happens. I mean, I knew it was going to be bad. I knew what Lance would do. And I knew that