 it's just sad because like you said if you just own up and say hey you know what i screwed up like what if you would have sat in front of the you know the hearing yesterday and just said look follow on the sword i screwed it up i'm at the top she did say that but then she then she said it comes back to me but she didn't say that she didn't follow it up with like what you said she didn't say hey you know what this will never happen again we underestimated you know that kind of stuff she just tried to sit and