 I just made whatever decisions I thought would at least give me the ability to possibly come back and race. But the problem was that the way it happened, and because I was Armstrong's former teammate, and because of the spectacle of how I won the race, there was no way that I was ever going to race again. I just wasn't prepared to accept that. So I fought it for a while, a couple years, and in the end probably made it harder to tell the truth, but...