 I'm not going to despair. A lot of people say, oh, you should be angry. Oh, you should feel cheated. Oh, don't you wonder why you got lost out of the genetic lottery here? And I really don't. Mostly what I'm focused on is trying to make the most of the days that I have left. I don't want to spend, if I only have 12 months left, spend those 12 months in despair and feeling bad for myself. I want to spend it doing what I love. And when I do it,