 and i was okay now i'm really upset because where are we as a conservative movement where people that i really respect and some i don't respect we're launching those salvos at you remember this it was like september october ish am i getting that right yeah it's about right where you were public enemy number one especially post october 7th even though you were very morally clear on it can you walk us through that what did you learn during that when you were the recipient of a lot of friendly fire and instead of going after your positions they questioned your intelligence