 on this big adventure and like not a lot of people do that, but I think a lot of it was too, I was scared before I did it. But then the second that I start doing something and become comfortable with it, it seems like it's nothing. And that's where the independency comes from. I always will do it because I feel like I can do it by myself. But there was like fear and like having to leave my family when I first turned 19 and like, um, figuring out like, um,