 soften my heart and bring us closer or bring me closer to him because he's near, you know, it says in the Bible, he's near to the brokenhearted. Did you have like a breaking point between you and God? Like you're angry or angry or was it just over time? It was a little bit over time before I got pregnant because I did get pregnant again 14 months after losing. And it was before then I was like, you know, he has a plan. Even in Job where he talks about Job's questioning. God doesn't really just say, well, this is why I'll let you go through this. It's like,