 It took a little bit, and I want to say, or you want to say you're healed after you find out you're pregnant again or have the baby, but it doesn't. Because that baby doesn't replace the baby that you're always going to miss. And I think I even had that in my head. I'll be happy whenever I get pregnant again and have a good pregnancy. Did it surprise you that that feeling didn't go away? I thought it would go away with it.