 They didn't quite know what to say, but I still found all these nuggets and I assembled them into a way that's meaningful. And I've wrestled with these issues for a lifetime. One day I have to look at my Savior in the eye and answer for what He's given me. I've had the benefit of having great teaching that I've listened to. I can't go to seminary. I'd like to, but I can't. But I listen to a lot of stuff online as I'm doing my chores.