 And sadly, there was a lack of commitment, and I knew it. I mean, I could say I love Jesus, but I wasn't going to die for him. And I surely wasn't going to obey him if he meant go back to some place where I didn't feel like I deserved to be there. And I don't know if you're like me, but that was a situation where I had to ask myself, is there a way out of this? Sadly to me, over the 45, 50 years since that day that I was saved, I have found that many Christians say, yeah, that's about it. That's all you really have.