 that if this year i have to look like this because you see me at all which he actually chooses i could let you see you me but you don't want to for the one time i had you in the shot that you were you could see me but oh i could see you i want to see you i know you're not here i don't mind i yes i did is all about that it throws me off because we've done this for so long where i haven't i don't see you so this is the way i like to do it and even when we were at the same building