 think it's to mexico okay we're just going with a few friends it was a pretty cheap cruise that's what we're doing too this year okay that's great good for y'all well done that's fun that's fun so you started the whole thing off stephanie saying in a sense i make too much to be this broke there's a little bit disgust was your why i'm disgusted with this i'm not gonna live like this and that's what finally helped you turn the corner now that you're the other side of it is does that does it feel like you thought it was going to