 I know it's pushed you, but it's still there. You're never the same person again, are you? No, you're never the same. But I got to tell you, it's a mission that I never won, but a mission that God has placed on my shoulders. And that's to save thousands of people from what we have seen go on in this country, chaos, havoc, havoc all across the country. And I talked to Dr. Drew about it. I said, you know, what can I do to get beyond the pain? And he said...