 You know, I needed her and she wasn't there. And I finally decided that, you know, I have to count on myself. And, you know, at a young age, you know, just like Martha said, you know, you listen to your friends. You know, I'd gotten myself into some pretty... And I did become resentful, you know. But it was a choice. My father made really great money, but maybe it wasn't a choice at the same time. It's so complicated because their relationship was so...