 But what happened was there was a betrayal and the betrayal lasted the first six or seven months of our relationship. And I didn't find out about it till last August. And I really felt that, you know, since he kind of lied to me for a year and a half that, you know, you're telling me you want to marry me, but how do I get over this betrayal if I can't trust you, you know, to be honest. And