 Seeing all this violence without being able to understand it or contextualize it shattered my belief in how society operated and shattered my belief in how people could be. Could they be good? It's the biggest question we always have. Why? Why would we do this? Why would this happen? Why? And I didn't get to answer that question until I was an adult. Every time Carol tried to ask her mom about that week in April, she would shut it down.