 I mean, he died on the cross for you, and this might be a help, Laura. Every time you feel that sense of despair, look at a crucifix. Keep one with you or in your purse, maybe. You can get a little one at a Catholic goods store. But look at the cross and say, this proves Jesus does love me. This proves that God loves me because he died for me. That's how much he loves me. The fact that you exist at all is proof that God loves you.