 is pushing me and I just don't have the freedom to think things through clearly. And I know it's such an important decision that it will affect me and my children. And during you say that about not making a decision, I would really like to just dismiss my attorney and just stop and think this through and make sure that I'm doing what God wants me to do in this matter and not what anyone else is manipulating me in this circumstance. And I just was kind of hoping for some direction in that matter.