 i have doubted god i've wondered where god was in my life and he'd come through in the 11th hour and 59th minute and i'd promise that i would never doubt him again you know i'll walk by faith and there i am six months a year later faced with another challenge and i wonder where he is or i wonder why he allowed this cross to take place yeah and my my trial was nothing like what you and jay had to go through where were you did you wonder why god who was good and loving would allow something like this to happen was your faith