 that healing and you're saying gosh my prayers don't feel like they are uh that they're working besides your book be healed and i think that's great you've got you know of course the 10-day scriptural retreat um that goes with you know that do you want to be healed and i've always found that interesting do people truly sometimes want to be healed or do they maybe on a subconscious level not want to let go of that for some reason does that make sense