 I certainly did. And I, as a result of that, I, I know, I feel like I went through the grief cycle, whatever they consider. I think it's like it's first, I know there's like five steps or I'm not really sure, but I know there's a cycle with it. And that's how I felt like I went from, um, Denial, anger, bargaining. Um, uh, what is it? Resignation. Um,