 and i thought oh yeah yeah it looks great it looks great and i gave him you know a nice i gave him over twenty percent tip i just wanted to you know stay in this this place i could feel this war inside me i wanted to lash out at the guy i wanted to you know just say you know what are you doing how long are you taking and you didn't even really cut my hair the way i wanted it to and but i just you know i can i can feel this battle raging within me so then i leave and i go back