 conviction that God is in control. And like, I sit in the sacred heart and like, I am safe here. Like I am in a place of refuge. So it's, it's hard when the human emotions and the human hormones and the human tiredness or the anxiety or the questioning just kind of hits you like almost like a tidal wave, you know? And that's one of the things that I've really loved learning and counseling is instead of asking what if ask what is, and then to be able to kind of start, you know, really like I sometimes I'll just reach out and like,