 to say, well, I fell, so now I'm not going to talk to him because he probably doesn't want to hear from me anyway. We're continuing to turn our back on him and say, okay, Lord, I'm turning back around, looking at you face to face. I'm ashamed and I'm frustrated, but I don't want to reject you anymore. And what a great, what a powerful witness to ourselves and others to say, yeah, in the midst of the hardest moments of my life,