 And in 2018, I became an alcoholic. I started being the same person that my mom was. Oh. So you didn't come from, I don't want to put words in your mouth, but rather than learning lessons and saying, I'll never do that with my kids, you wound up kind of falling into the same pattern without even realizing it, right? Exactly. Exactly. What effect did that have on your family? What effect did that have on your kids and your marriage? It was terrible.