 i'm getting anxious right so i'll just reach out and i'll like i'll touch you know okay what is right so i can feel right now you guys will laugh i'm in my car at a double header baseball game in the parking lot because my kids have a rain out baseball games right like so like i'm i'm in this car i can see i can feel i can touch i know things are good things are right i you know it's so good to like hug your kids hug your husband be in the moment and that's a great way to start fighting some of those