 I would have liked you to be handsome so I could brag about you with big eyes like your mother's. I would have liked to sing to you to make you fall asleep and continue the dream that woke you up. I would have liked you to be shy so I could see you blush and stubborn so I could argue with you. I would have liked you to be at my side so the two of us could walk in silence trying to understand what the other was thinking inside and couldn't manage to say.