 cruel tyrant. And that's the opposite of who he is. That's the opposite of who he is. And I think in order to really be able to develop an intimacy with him and to really be able to trust him with those scary things like, what is tomorrow going to look like? What's my vocation going to look like? I desperately want to give myself in a vocation, but there's no one on the horizon. The dating scene is so difficult. I don't know how to engage with it. I'm never getting yeses when I ask people out or nobody's asking me out or whatever.