 just a hypothetical looking back on it i know we can't change what's already happened but if you could go back to your 14 year old self in that lonely house with your father gone at work and your mother gone at work and you're there by yourself if you could do it all over again do you think you would have said to her this really is i'm lonely i need you do you think you would have said it now that you know what's happened after all that