 Um, I'm having a hard time getting over him. Um, and a lot of the things that I'm going through in marriage, I think, um, I wish that I was going through them with him instead of my husband. And, um, I'm also, sometimes I'm thinking, oh, if I knew what I knew now, I could have saved that relationship. I just don't know how to move past it. I want to, um, and I want to give myself fully to my husband. Um, I do love him and we, um, we're expecting now. Um, but I just,