 I tried to guard my Saturday and stay home, be quiet, be with him and reboot myself. It feels like to me he has given up on our marriage and still has not forgiven me for how toxic I was before I started in Al-Anon. I'm not perfect. I still act like a jerk sometimes, but I apologize and try to make amends when I mess up. The four horsemen are frequent visitors at our house for both of us.