 a source of it some people are really bothered by spiritual things because of an underlying ocd issue i'm not saying that's the case i'm not telling you that's you know your situation because i have no way of knowing but let me give you two resources that i find helpful and i've recommended before there are two books either or both of them will help you do you have a pen uh give me one sec sorry okay yeah you'll like you'll like these books these books are going to help you