 Yeah, I am sure it was tested. How did you get through it? Because, I mean, you're, as I said in the very beginning, an inspiration to so many people because you've walked with the Lord and I think we're now beginning to see the fruit of that faithfulness. But take us through that. Speak to that person right now who is wondering why, why God? I think I always, I'm an impatient person. I'm very type A and I like things done now. And what I,