 conceive babies you did have that these children come through adoption and yet when you let go you saw god had something else in store and i love where you mentioned that question you know do you want to be pregnant basically or do you want to be parents and then you saw that god was calling you yes to be parents but it was in a different way through a different avenue and i think coming from the crisis pregnancy world and worked for so long with women in crisis pregnancy it's such a beautiful example of how