 And after college, during college, at the end of it, I was spending more time in adoration, going to mass every day. And I just felt God was calling me, but I was afraid because I wanted to be loved. And I thought that I couldn't receive the love I desired if I give myself over to Jesus as a sister. So he proved that to me over and over again. And it was a silent experience of no feeling and no sensation before the Eucharist and adoration that just pushed me away from my fears and pulled me into this journey of adventure and