 and laura i know you've been the confession i know you've talked about it a little bit of advice i'll give you if you're dealing with scrupulosity and if you're dealing with despair and you're worried about giving into it meditate on how merciful god is i mean he is love and mercy itself you know faustina writes in her diary as she says these angels say it's the astonishment of the angels it's the wonder of the saints and what i would recommend you to do is