 for 20 years and you're still struggling with it. I mean, I, I get it, but this isn't on you. This is on him. You will in fact heal. Uh, and I've seen it. I've seen it often. I mean, you know, you've heard the saying, God closes the door and opens a window. Um, there's a better guy out there and I know easy to say, but, um, uh, but there you go. Um,