 on face the nation um obedience you know i feel i look at the saints it's not a burden it's a grace that's how you grow in holiness it's a deeper path to intimacy with god look at padre bio line your hearts to god's divine will great things will come from it look at saint faustina and maybe you are in this challenge i mean we don't all have to be you know stigmatics or have visions of the lord you might be dealing with a legitimate authority where you you need maybe to submit to that obediently