 sense, I didn't know what it meant, but I had a very deep sense that I knew I wanted to be consecrated or have a very separate life. Whether it be to the Lord, I wasn't really sure what exactly that meant, but there was a sense of being separated. But that became a lot clearer when I was in high school. I had gone to a retreat and I would say I had a reversion of sorts. I don't think I was an all that bad kid, but maybe not a 180, but maybe more like a 160 or something of sorts. And