 my role has a mom and it's one of those things where you, you know it, but you don't know it in your heart until something kind of puts it there. And, um, you don't know what, like you don't know what you've got until you don't have it anymore. Is that what you mean? Well, it's like, you know, something in theory, but you don't really understand it. You know, like you don't feel it until something makes that and, um, makes that connection. And,