 I'm not God. I mean, how could I have such hubris, such ego, be such a narcissist to think that I should know what God does? And what we know through Jesus is that he is there. He's always there. And there's things that we bear, which is, I think, part of the preparation for eternal life. And from my standpoint, I always think, John, that no matter what happens, and this is the only way I try to help