 You're not godly. You're basing your godliness on your emotions. You're basing your godliness on your activity. You're basing your godliness on how you look and how you sound, and you're impressing somebody. But you're not impressing God. That's not the godliness we're talking about. If you want to be that person, I suggest that you stay filled with the Holy Spirit and you find a well-qualified pastor that you can study under.