 Even though they worked side by side, Carol and her mom didn't really understand each other. Carol had no idea how her mom felt about Saigoo. Her mom just went right back to work, seemed so calm and unflappable. And Carol was just angry. She remembers shortly after Saigoo sitting on that blue cushion in the booth, looking out at the sky filled with smoke and ash. Looking out the window and just shaking my head about, like, why? Why would we do this?