 you mentioned that you had gone through a period of feeling resentment and that got resolved. As you look back on it now, any resentment left or do you feel fulfilled or I don't want to put words in your mouth. How would you, how would you describe looking back on it, how you feel about all of it? Oh, there's, there's always a little bit of that old, you know, not, not grown up part of me that that resentment creeps in, you know, but, um,