 I was constantly praying and just trying to stand in faith. And people had come over and prayed with me. And some had even said, I'm going to be healed. But I didn't know that. I wanted to believe that. But what I was looking at in the mirror was contradictory to what they were saying. And so it was hard to believe, but I kept standing on that. But I will tell you this. I've always asked God if I ever went through something horrific, would I be like...