 One of the things you said I think that's important is when you came home. For me, I was exposed to so much violence and trauma and stress all the time that I had to leave Baltimore. I had to get out of the state of Maryland. I loved being a couple hours away, but still it was too close. I moved to a totally different other part of the United States. I'm in Florida now. And I still walk around, not with my head on a swivel like I used to, not like I was when I was on the job,