 some part of that is just time passing and then you just choosing to say hey I didn't know I know now I'm changing my life and a lot of that is just you choosing that every single day to go all right I'm a person who understands that I'm a person who's responsible and that's who I am now and that's how you view yourself yeah the way you rebuild let's say you violated trust with someone else not with yourself how do you rebuild trust with someone