 that I've been through and done to where whenever I spoke, people listened. And I had a lot of respect from everybody. So the fact that, you know, I was off, I felt horrible because I was off on the side sitting on the curb when I should have been one of the ones helping the guys out, but I just couldn't do it. It was too much for me at that time. Was it accumulation you think of everything or was it just one sudden event?