 uh, how, how tough things could really be and how good I actually have it. You know, that's when I get complacent and everybody gets complacent. And it's, it's, um, you know, one of the things that, that, that I, that, that I'm able to lower my guard in is when I'm around, when I'm around my brothers, if I'm around someone in law enforcement, I trust them, you know, and I, I, I feel like I can sit with my back to the door and,