 And when I'm with her, everything's great. And every, you know, I spend a couple nights a week by myself. I'm not with her. And I start having panic attacks, which I used to suffer from. And I find myself going back to my old habits of drinking. And then it starts fights, you know, with her. I start, you know, being, you know, not very kind, you know, assuming things are wrong and they really aren't, you know, the mixture of panic attack and, you know, drinking.