 some C.S. Lewis, and he was describing, first you obey God, then you learn to love God, and then you learn to love people. I mean, is it that, I mean, I'm trying to pursue it, but it just feels like, you know, when am I going to feel like it's catching on? Well, I mean, don't get ahead of yourself. It's a process, and it sounds like you are living that process the way you should be. Just don't worry about it.