 his mom because I knew if she found out she probably wasn't gonna let him just run around town with me as a parent should you know I get it but I still wanted to see my son on the other hand I had this little girl who was who's at the time was like kindergarten first grade and just she don't understand she just wanted to be with her dad and we having fun that's it no matter where we are if dad's good she's good all those nights she would go to sleep I would just cry I was broken like I was really broken and finally one night I got sick