 that that was going to require a spiritual awakening i knew from reading the lives of the saints that there had been people who had been living in all kinds of depravity saint augustine was one saint francis another who had these spiritual awakening and just walked away from addiction and i had a friend who was a friend of my little brother who died of this disease but david who was a year different than me and he became he was he took heroin the same way i did with the same enthusiasm and compulsion