 If this is the path you want to take, here's the end of the road for you. And Eric, that was really the turning point for me. And I walked away from that life. And I sadly got involved in a Baptist church in L.A. that was very progressive and liberal that was pushing this agenda. But God still wasn't giving me any peace. And after about three more years of just agony and heartbreak, I eventually got the answer I wanted. And I just said to God, if you will...