 that you can, if you go and love someone, that you are displeasing God and risk his wrath, or you can please God, but then if he doesn't change your desires, then I was facing a life of loneliness. And this was really the dilemma for me. And when you have a culture, the LGBT community, it really is like a cult. And having spent 25 years of my life in that lifestyle, mostly in the LA club scene, very liberal, and you're just fed a bunch of nonsense. And it took me so long