 Right, right, exactly. And it was a lot of alone time and isolation, unfortunately. And I kept asking myself, okay, what is, God saved me for a reason. I was given this second chance. I'm supposed to be happy. And yes, it's a miracle. And I am very grateful because I think of the people who don't get a transplant in time. But how come I'm struggling so much, like, to figure out why am I here? What is my purpose?