 I would go to school where I was bullied and rejected by my male peers. So I was really lacking in male bonding. And then when I was around Christians who really didn't have the heart of Christ, who were talking about the faggots and God created AIDS to kill the fags and they're going to hell, this really stole any hope I had. And so, Eric, when I walked into a gay bar at 18, and it was the first time that I had guys treating me differently,