 And if I hadn't been reading, I wouldn't know what it was. And I realized it. He was putting His Spirit in me. He was warming me. He was warming me from inside. And boy, I tell you, I was zealous for God. Zealous for God. Restore it to me, Lord. I want to be restored back to that state, Lord. I say I didn't sin for months after that. I love God so much. I'd never have done the things I've done in the years past after that experience if I'd stayed in that. I want God to restore me to it fully. Apostatize. We've apostatized.