 Every new challenge was, I can do this. I'll just work hard at it. I'll be the best at it. So there's a way in which I think I did benefit from what was a bizarre upbringing. Is that helpful? I would say so. And you mentioned, obviously, kind of your relationship with your parents. I guess, why were you kind of so determined to go about trying to repair that relationship later on in life? Well, even as a child, and I think I was pretty...