 uh but but at some you know it's not a reality for everybody right so when you started did you ever think that this was something that that would become a reality for you i mean obviously it's always like a dream you know when you're a little kid growing up you know you want to be playing major leagues but honestly it wasn't something that really i didn't think was really reality until like last summer i started to get a little bit of professional scouts coming to games and stuff started to get a little attention there and honestly i didn't really think it was it was going to happen until like last summer last fall so it's