 I was in full-blown addiction at the time. I felt like this pit of fear in me when I got drafted. Like, the pressure's only getting higher. I'm going to a place where I don't know anybody, so I'm going to be back even more isolated. So it is not a good recipe for somebody like me in the position that I was in. So my first year, I ended up failing a whole bunch of drug tests and got suspended four games going into my second year. And I had, like, a tear in my shoulder. And then from there...