 I was in full-blown addiction at the time. I felt like this pit of fear in me when I got drafted. The pressure's only getting higher. I'm going to a place where I don't know anybody, so I'm going to be back even more isolated. It is not a good recipe for somebody like me in the position that I was in. My first year, I ended up failing a whole bunch of drug tests and got suspended four games going into my second year. I had a tear in my shoulder, and then from there—