 So the tubes that get his food to him hadn't been working. And so he came out under five pounds, even though I was two weeks overdue. And when he came out, he had this extra skin, you know, all around him where he was once plump and had sort of shrunk. So I think that just set off all these feelings in my mind that he hadn't even been born yet and I'd already let him down. How could I have known? You know, why wasn't he out sooner? Why was I just going around doing pregnancy yoga and eating bagels, you know, when I should have been looking after him?