 she googled and typed in postpartum and psychosis and just straight away came up and I think it's about the only time I'd scored 100% in a test it was like bam bam bam bam bam bam I mean the illness is different for everybody of course it is but I was textbook you know I and my doctor said in a way that's a really good thing that you're textbook because it means we can just treat you this was now Saturday and then I woke up on my first mother's day in a psychiatric ward oh