 smooth i describe it as like a airplane with turbulence you know when the air stewards are calm you're like okay we're rocking around but they seem calm with the drinks trolley everything's fine but when they start panicking and the looks on their faces are telling you otherwise that's when you're thinking okay maybe something isn't right here there was like nobody for me to grip onto you know i was really wanting that experience to feel like i had a sort of cheerleader holding my hand through it