 But no one told you it was your fault? No one told me, but it just triggered. The mum guilt was just real. So I hadn't slept in the lead up to the birth. And then I had an epidural. He wasn't coming out vaginally. What else happened? He had the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck twice. He was facing the wrong way around. Then there was meconium, which can cause infection. So I had to call an emergency caesarean in the end. I think this is after being in the hospital for nearly two days.