 I felt he was the only person that I could trust. I remember once coming back after a session and my family very sweetly had like wallpapered, not completely, but they'd make like a sort of shrine to him on the wall with all photographs and I just couldn't even look at them. It just made me too upset. I kept them there for them, but it was an area that I couldn't go. I kind of wanted to just cocoon and just get better and then come out the other side and...