 And I took a breath and I said, I can do this. And I went over the same line again and I still couldn't read it. And this thing started happening where that lump in my throat was back in the hot feeling was behind my eyes. And I was going over and over these lines and I couldn't read any of it. And I was so frustrated because I'm 18 and I know how to read now. I'm not 12. I'm not that girl. And I'm crying.