 And they'd put blocks and letters and numbers in front of me and eventually words, you know, small ones like cot, mat, top hat. And they'd say, Isabel, can you read this? You know, a word has a shape. And I didn't understand how the sound would correspond to that shape. And when you put them together and they were meant to sound like this complete word. And I get this hot feeling in the back of my eyes and a lump in my throat constantly.