 You know, it's interesting, too. You said that when you went home, I mean, you were still in denial, but there was a part of you, according to your book, there was a part of you that realized that, well, if it isn't Parkinson's disease, then it's something, and it could be much worse than that. There are moments... Mine is a life sentence, I have to say. A chance of parole. Other things, as you know well, can be a death sentence. So I don't have the worst of it, but I do have to...