 And so when I would come back home, I would feel that heaviness all over again because I'm like, why can't I feel like that here? And so one day I'm telling my coworker, you know, telling her about this spot that I went to, and she's like, Miosha, you should do that here. And I'm like, yeah, we should have that. But then again, how the hell am I going to do that? And I'm not out. You know, I'm not open with myself yet.