 I was still incredibly scared. And I was scared not only of looking stupid and being a failure and not being up to it, but I was incredibly scared of public speaking. So Joseph, for 30 nights, had to give a talk. And I would sit literally cowering in the back. And what I was most afraid of was that I'd be in front of a group of people and I'd be in the middle of my talk and my mind would go completely blank. And I would just sit there.