 And the thing for me, that struggle went away because I started acknowledging that I wasn't in love with a woman. I was in love with a person. I was in love. And, you know, when you fall in love, you just want to shout it from the mountaintops. You know, somebody loved me and I loved them back. And it just so happened that she lived out of state. So I would go and visit her. And I felt that free and alive feeling again, being able to hold hands with her out in public and PDA and