 And so I didn't get to any kind of tunnel of light. I had colors and music. My granddad that I mentioned earlier, and I seem to talk about him a lot everywhere, even though he's been gone since the 70s, he was there with his arms around me. But what happened is when I was doing psychic development, sitting in mediumship development circle, taking weekend classes, I was ashamed of the fact I was doing that because I had this great corporate job.