 It was beyond traumatizing. I mean, the analogy that I often have is imagine you're drowning, and there's nothing to hold on to. You just keep on sinking deeper and deeper, and there's nothing you can do. And so, you know, what did I do? Instead of I was struggling against this, I was resisting against this. But as we know, with all walks of life, what we resist persists. And so what I did was I just completely surrendered.