 mean that bullet literally grazed his ear it took off part of his ear like you don't get closer to death than that in life had he not turned up the last second he would have been dead and so my heart sank obviously he came up you know there's blood all over the face blood on the side of the you know so again we didn't know if he got hit the torso we didn't you know know how he was doing and then he put up his hand and he said fight fight fight and uh and what was it like to see your dad in that moment