 you know it took me a while to find that but it's a beautiful story because i went through so many trials and tribulations before that but man there's nothing that can really explain that feeling do you feel like and again i'm not trying to get too far in the weeds and i i'm gonna be real with you jake i'm not like i know there's stuff going on i don't know exactly what's going on but i know there's stuff going on but i'm gonna be real transparent i'm not the most spiritual person ever are you pretty well convinced that this is not your first time around have there been other reincarnations of you