 the very first day of being in that position I stood up in front of a pretty large group of people somewhere between 150 and 200 and and I had a piece of paper that I was holding in my hand and it was shaking and I couldn't get the words out I was freezing and I knew the topic that I was talking about really well it should have been very simple I knew all the people standing in front of me I had worked intimately with them in the past but I had never been standing front and center and