 And I remember going to, I got an infection after they had one of the surgeries, and I remember going through a tunnel. I mean, the bright light tunnel, but it was a bluish bright light tunnel. And when I got there, I play bridge. When I got there, my grandmother and two of my aunts were there, and there was a fourth chair there waiting, I thought, for me. And they said, no, you have to go back and raise your children's.