 immediately when I started doing stand-up was attracted to those kind of unspeakable things that I was just wondering why more people don't talk about especially when it comes to sex I just I think the fear that I had around it that I was gonna be bad at it that I was gonna get made fun of that I was gonna do it wrong it was all because I just didn't know what was going on in there and no one was talking about it so as soon as I started kind of partaking in it I