 it just seems too hard and that's really what it comes down to i just don't think that i'll be that good at it i think i would be good at it but it would be at the sacrifice of other things that i really care about being good at and i'm not even joking i just like naps too much and i just i love i love rest and i love being able to sleep when i want to sleep and and i like not feeling guilty that i'm not playing with something and not like