 I left her little room and I walked down those four flights of stairs thinking, I can't do that. I'm not doing that. And then I went off to Boulder, Colorado to visit a friend I had made in India, Joseph Goldstein, who was just starting to teach meditation. And while I was with Joseph in Boulder, we received an invitation to teach a one month long retreat. So I thought, okay, I'll stay and do that. Then I'll go back to India. The nature of our retreats, the format of our retreats is