 Why won't you let her have a voice? And he would say, I'd love to have a night off. You know, go talk to her. But I just couldn't do it. I was so scared. And then some of this was like months later, because these invitations kept happening. And I kept thinking, I'll go back to India a little later. I'll go a little later, as we kept accepting the invitations. And I couldn't speak. And then I remember that in the context of the loving kindness practice,