 because there'd been a quote-unquote mercy killing in the hospital, and he suffered dreadfully, and I'd been up to see him the weekend before, and I was very angry with God that that could happen for all that he'd been through in his life, and my parents, what they'd been through, and what we'd been through as a family to have to go that way. But it was a couple days later, and I was married with three children at the time, and I woke up.