 when i got there in terms of taping a special when i got there i was like who else has filmed here and they were like oh no one excuse me and no other females no no no other females you'd be the first and then you know i got that feeling like a little tingling and it wasn't because i had too much coffee it was like it was the spirit it was the spirit moving me and saying i have to do this this is this is bigger picture this is not just about me