 um it's it's really rocked our household but you know i gotta say i i woke up this morning and it was it was the first time that i really sat there and instead of just brushing it off or saying you know it's it's just another day it's just another day like thank you god for this day but like we don't need to get attention i don't i don't want people to say anything uh it it really means an awful lot um to be here and to breathing the same air you are and