 as you said miserable okay that I'm happy going into it and you were miserable throughout our first weekend together we get married and then I'm all the sudden I'm a wife right and he invites all his friends over and I have this great time I'm talking to them we're laughing we're having this amazing time and the meal is over and I thought my husband's gonna be so happy with me because here it is it's my first Chavez as a wife and I did it all I managed it I pulled it off and everyone was happy