 and and then i i fell back asleep and woke up the next day and i think that i only remembered them like halfway through the day right and i was just like oh my god like that like in the moment like that was excruciating but then i woke up and i forgot about it and and it's almost like it didn't happen then i remembered about and then i remembered it and it's just like huh so what does what does pain mean if you have a very different memory