 I was in a bar after work with a bunch of people that didn't care about me. And frankly, I didn't care about them. And I said, well, this is a waste of money. So I would buy the liquor and I'd buy the vodka and take it home and drink it at home. And I would be alone. I mean, I would be alone in a room of 50 people. And I was lonely and alone. And a lot of it is just...