 I need to replace it with something else. Like, I need some sense of purpose. I'm restless unless I know I'm doing something that's kind of making the world a better place, not a worse place. Huh, so he's saying that signing up for a challenge trial was sort of like making up for the faith in God that he lost at some point. Yeah, I think something like that. And I would also say he said if he was being totally honest,