 You know, one of the things I was thinking about is my book came out a month ago. It's the first time I ever said openly that my father was the one that abused me. I've never done that. I never did that before. I didn't write who it was in my other book. I'm doing some expert work, and I'm about to testify on behalf of a child who was abused. What I'm noticing the last month is I'm more anxious. I'm having more nightmares. I'm having more flashbacks because...