 they bought me some breakfast which was scrambled eggs and the reason why I had scrambled eggs is because it was what I was eating at the maternity ward and it was just the only thing I could even think of I had no appetite but I knew I had to eat and I just remember crawling on my hands and knees with the duvet around me to the table and they bought this on this lightweight tray the knife and fork and I just thought I remember thinking this is it now you've got to this is the lowest it can get for you you've got to come up now from here