 you know, as something that happened, you know, and therefore I'm going to curl up in my bed and, you know, not do anything, which is definitely, you know, there are days when I feel like that, but you know, it's, it's about what am I going to do to make things better from here? Better emotionally, better physically, you know, it doesn't mean that it's something that's happening to me. It's something that's happening through me. I love that.