 And I got this rare, unfortunate symptom from the epidural, which meant I was scratching all the time. And I would scratch till I would bleed. You know, my feet would scratch my legs. And I just felt so caged in there. You're making yourself sound like an animal, caged and feral. But what kind of animal? I remember being jealous of animals like rhinos and cats that could, you know, cats that would give birth privately in a cupboard. I wanted to, of course, if I had done that, we would both probably be dead.