 yes and it was shocking however yeah i'm in my 70s now and i think that that was really played an instrumental part in my childhood and in my life because i think about something i really want and i discern is it something i re frivolous maybe do i really want it or do i need it not in everything but in big things that like you said anyway yeah no no that's beautiful you owe your father a thank you when you meet and i hope it's not for a while