 So, you know, God had become a very, very small thing in my life, and then I had this, you know, I was struggling. I had, by the way, I had very iron willpower in my, always, from when I was a kid, and very good discipline. I gave up candy for Lent when I was 13. I never ate candy again until I was in college, and I gave up desserts for Lent when I was 14. I never had another dessert until I was in college, and I was bulking up for sport, for rugby.