 and when i did that you know maybe i was you know kissing my career goodbye but but see that's when you get to a certain level in the in the military especially when you when you're you know when you're honored to be selected as a general officer or an admiral in the navy you know general in the army or the marine corps i mean these are these are big responsible positions and then you're put into a position of the head of one of the largest intel agencies in the world if if if you're going to be