 yeah i didn't think about the uh the tackle afterwards it was more just especially the first night he just had this look of like bliss it was just like serenity you know and then well can you imagine after i mean it's like getting a second life yeah no i literally cannot imagine uh i've had experiences very tangentially you know similar to that and yeah it's a it is an insane feeling knowing that like every day from now on is is the result of a miracle i just think uh