 just trying to be cool, just trying to be relevant. You kind of have to be like, Bible Belt Christians are weird. And so I followed really much, pretty much that ideology, I would say all through college until in 2013, my grandmother died quite unexpectedly. We really were not expecting her to die. She was always a family matriarch. My grandfather was the patriarch. We thought she was just going into the hospital for a couple of days and then she never came out. And it was sort of this jarring moment