 in my heart that i i feel like i need something that i don't have and god's like oh really okay um and so i think that that's i think number one is wanting what i already have another one is is being at peace with where god has me now this is this is tricky because it's not peace does it mean that i like where i am or that i would prefer to be where i am you know paul didn't prefer to be a prison i mean the man he didn't prefer to have been out and