 some part of that is just time passing and then you just choosing to say hey i didn't know i know now i'm changing my life and a lot of that is just you choosing that every single day to go all right i'm a person who understands that i'm a person who's responsible and that's who i am now and that's how you view yourself yeah the way you rebuild let's say you violated trust with someone else not with yourself how do you rebuild trust with someone