 really land a real relationship and i mean i have some women i like but it never really worked out uh... i had a kid out of wedlock i was missing my son he was out of state i could only see him certain times and i couldn't afford to really go and see him more than just once in a while because i couldn't afford to fly with you know with all the other stuff i had to do and you know i went from that to being married and now i had another son so i i was able to recover all that stuff i missed