 uh give me this so we're talking about my mets bible it's available everywhere okay this is evan's relationship with the mets over the course of the last 30 years sick and abusive yes several pill addictions have been born out drinking he's in a death cult now it's a whole to do uh give me this because without even getting into specifics of the 30 i just want to jump through an error that i know you know a lot about