 You asked yourself at one point in one of the journal entries in this period whether it was possible to create out of happiness. It just made my mind jump to, I don't know if you mean the same thing, but it made my mind jump to something I read Toni Morrison say once, that she always tried to find moments of cooperation between her characters in order to propel the narrative as opposed to conflict. But I wonder, what were you asking there, and did you ever answer it for yourself, whether it was possible to create out of happiness?