 It's taken me a number of years to come to the point I'm at, and I'm sure I'm not there yet. I have a long ways to go. But the place where I'm at now, I've kind of laid out a progression of what I think is happening and just kind of what has brought us there and whether or not we really are still here or vibrating at a higher frequency and in another place or where we are. And I'd like to kind of get that when I can...