 I removed the cross and I faced it the right way, just for my own mental stability and comfort. So as a mum who's lost a son in this way, how does it make you feel? It's deeply hurting because I also don't know the history behind the person taking his life away. Thereafter, I also hit depression because of the entire situation. I didn't come out of the house for almost a year. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't do anything. I just stopped functioning.