 So that was the beginning. That's stage one of an initiation ceremony of a rite of passage, a separation from reality as you know it. And you're suddenly placed in a middle ground, psychologically speaking, of a middle ground betwixt and between. You're marginal. You tell people what you saw. That didn't really happen. So your own existence, you question your own sanity, your own existence. Finally, the final stage is when you complete it.