 A writer I admired a great deal was the late Greg Tate. And Greg Tate was so great because I felt like everything he wrote, he wrote it like it was the last thing he was ever going to write. Every review, every essay, it's like the last thing. But I think in order to pursue something that you cannot see and you can't touch, you in some ways have to bring yourself to a place that is very much now or never. At least in my mind. I can't say anymore, I'll try that next book, I'll try that next book. It was kind of like everything I've been dreaming about