 They perceive me as a failed mother, or that somehow you caused it, or it was your fault, you did something that must have caused him to go in that direction. And they blame you for his death, not understanding that it was actually a mental condition. I took a lot of flak. And then the difficulty in speaking and talking about suicide around you, especially family members, they don't know how to process it. If having your son die by suicide wasn't enough, Jackie then faced prejudice when it came to his funeral.