 Wow, no kidding. I'm just thinking of the lessons that you would impart. And I've seen your wonderful keynote, so I've seen you do that. When you knew you were hanging it up, what was that like? Like, okay, this is it. This is my last race. I'm moving on. It was awful. It was awful. It was the only thing I ever wanted in my whole life, and I'd failed. And I was as strong as I'd ever been and not...