 And again, for it to just never have been properly, I don't even use the word explain. It's just we didn't really talk about it, but we just knew this terrible thing had happened. One of my mother's cousins was the sibling of two who drowned. And that cousin's life, you know, was never, you know, obviously her life was marked by that event. You know, in all those years of my life, just having this shadow behind us and a lot of, you know,