 From what I've seen and heard from you, Tom, this was obviously that you can't go through an event like this and not have it change you in profound ways. How did you notice at the time that it changed you? I don't think I did at the time. I think what I noticed was anger and revenge welling up inside of me. I wrapped it all up into a country. I hate all these people, you know, that kind of thing. It's like,