 largely absent in your life. I mean, yeah, 99.99% absent in my life. That was something that I really didn't deal with until I wrote the book because I had just let myself pretend like it didn't matter, like I didn't care. And then when I wrote the book, I realized how much it really mattered, how much it really cared. It really shaped me. And pretending like it didn't happen wasn't an option anymore. How did it shape you?