 epic failure to uh something resembling a success by the time we were done it was that spirit and so that also then brought me to our next door neighbor um nicole who cooked every single day even though she worked in the fields every day there was always dinner on the table at eight o'clock there was the the the grocer in town who kind of took me under her wing the grocer's mother who really almost taught me about life as much as about cooking but taught me