 one of them just really really rocked my boat so much so that it kind of crushed my faith and you know i'm sure that in hindsight now that a lot of that probably would have been the fact that you know i didn't receive any counseling i didn't go to a doctor there was no police report on the sexual abuse so all those things are still there right and having an adverse impact on your life but um but at any rate i kind of left out of the church one day the methodist church kind of upset and mad