 buying stuff that I wanted in the moment that wasn't necessary. And so my question is, as we embark on applying for a home loan and just building our future, my question is, how do I forgive myself for falling behind on finances when I could have been ahead if I hadn't gone into debt? And how do I stop obsessing over my past financial mistakes? How did you do that? Because Jade had a lot bigger mess than you did, and my mess was bigger than both of you put together.