 wonderful and i thought oh my god this must be what it's like for straight people every day because you know it it was our world view that we controlled the universe we would laugh on will and grace whenever they'd go into a store or a restaurant everybody was always gay in the in our new york city like everybody was always gay it was you know when you suspend your disbelief you know you can kind of create this kind of fabulous version of new york and it felt great and i knew i was like i don't know if this is going to happen again this is something very special