 right let me exhale i'm gonna buy this guitar but i'm gonna figure out a way to give this much money away okay now we can and it was just this weird psychological game i played with myself but it was my way of practicing we're not running for our lives anymore it's okay it's okay i like that i like that it's kind of like the opposite some people say you really know you can afford something if you can buy it twice have you heard people say that no it