 sort of one that's on the fringe like there are people who would say that that's on the fringe um and it seems like being interested in stories on the fringe and relating to outsiders even the way that you um talked about being embraced by the the drag queens who first inspired the transformation that you had in your in your early 20s um that that's a thing do you feel like an outsider yes but i assure you it's not a posture it's just something that