 this year now, and how many times as growing up in the ministry and many things, I wish I could have sat down with Dad and just said, Dad, I've got something that's puzzling me. I've got a question about this. I can't tell you how many times I've thought that I would really like to have done that. And I think that would have been good. But God, for me, in the taking of my father at such a young age, relatively speaking,