 roll with the punches so I actually immediately woke up face down on the water and I knew that I was paralyzed I tried to move and I knew I couldn't and so I was holding my breath and I just thought what do I do now and that's kind of how I've been the entire time with my accident just how do I move forward what can I do to make my life better even a little bit get off a ventilator try to get as much movement back as possible