 inner dialogue in my head and in my heart. You know, the Bible talks about hell, there being weeping and gnashing of teeth. And, you know, that sounds kind of odd, you know, that language is odd, but that's kind of how I felt. It was just like weeping, just like this inner despair and the gnashing of teeth. You can just imagine just grinding your teeth and clenching your fists at the same time. It was just