 you've blessed me beyond what I deserve in this life. And if anything bad has to happen today, because I was really guilt ridden and just felt a lot of shame for how I'd lived my life. And here I am crying out to God to help my wife and my unborn child. Because I hadn't heard from my sister-in-law in like two hours at that point. And so I was worried that something, very worried something was wrong. And I just fell down to my knees,