 And the guilt actually led me to having some real bad mental health issues right after that because I couldn't sleep. There was like three or four days where I didn't sleep at all. And I'm just finding out that my marriage is ending. So I'm losing my family. I just lost my partner. I'm losing my family. I'm dealing with all this stuff. And I'm not sleeping. I must have looked like when I got to work because my sergeant was like, hey, you need to go home and get some sleep.