 And the fact that it didn't go off, like when I first pulled the trigger and all I heard was the click, like it surprised me, but I didn't have like that, oh crap, I can't believe I'm about to do this. Like you hear a lot of times where someone tries to commit suicide and doesn't work and they're like, oh my goodness, I can't believe I did this. I didn't feel that way. Like it went click. I was like, no.