 Yes, sir. You went through the ringer trauma wise. And there's no really polite way of saying this. One of the biggest fears I had in law enforcement is having a partner killed or someone severely injured. And I had a guy who worked for me a couple of months after I transferred another district. He wanted being shot and killed in line of duty. And I'm still bothered by that. And that was, I think, 1989. That's how long ago it was. Those things don't go away.