 a minister. We had been attending this church, but at that point I had turned my back on my faith. Because again, the death of my first child, I really turned my back on a lot of things, including my faith. Because here we were, my wife and I had never taken drugs or alcohol, never smoked, yet our first child died and we knew people, related to people who had taken drugs and alcohol and had healthy children. I just thought the irony was too great. There's no such thing as a God.