 My husband died suddenly, but he had a chronic illness, and I had to take on more of a financial responsibility in the family. And maybe, you know, I don't know if this is a rejection of me. I don't know if this is a rejection of us. You know, my husband and I are Christianity, because he hates Christians now. You know, they're the enemy. I just really don't know how to cope with this. And do it in a loving manner, and...