 And I felt that if I adopted this child, who was very much a member of my family, and I loved her dearly, but I felt if I adopted her, I'd be taking her away from somebody who could not have children. Now, my friends, my family members, those I work with, those I went to church with, they kept telling me, John, you need to adopt her, you need to adopt her. And I knew that in my head, my heart just couldn't accept that. Again, I felt guilty. Now, fortunately,