 what, what did it for me is, uh, my, the rights to my daughter were terminated. Um, I was, uh, I had more or less just under two years of sobriety and the, uh, uh, the mother of my daughter and I had a relapse and things got really, really bad. And, um, I ended up getting in trouble. And then a month later she got in trouble and the baby was taken and,