 What I was striving to be was a good elephant trainer. I wasn't striving to be a mother. There wasn't any other woman doing an elephant act. There were women showgirls, but there was no woman who was performing with the elephants. And so I wanted to be taken seriously. I wanted people to see me as this trainer. And I didn't want them to see me as, oh, look at this mom. She loves that little elephant.