 difficult, it is taxing on other people, not to mention yourself, expensive, etc. So you wouldn't be committing suicide, you wouldn't be doing anything immoral if you were to say, Lord, I'm just going to let this play out as it is, and then when the time comes, then I will go to you. If that's the essence of your question, I hope that that answer gives you some clarity and hopefully a little bit of consolation as well.