 But that's what happened. I don't remember anything. Until when? Until I woke up and called you. And where did you wake up? Right here in the bedroom. In bed? No, in this chair, just like I am now. I saw Lily, just like she is now. Blood on the floor. I know she's done for, my beautiful Lily. Then I get up to get a bottle. And I sit down again in this chair. I take one good long drink.