 and you're not really sure where to go or what to do. And you have a lot of voices and all the monsters are trying to grab at you and pull you under. And so it's kind of the paddleboarding and the water kind of became a metaphor for my own life where I was trying to have a little bit more courage in facing my fear. I think that's the biggest thing, whether it's paddleboarding or it's divorce or it's life struggles, whatever they are, is to really go at them from a position of curiosity and