 to cover the evacuation which i did you've got a machine gun a pistol a gas mask and a radio but all day long we've been watching airplanes crash into buildings and so you know what before might have been a thought about how you might survive this this event turned into a realization that i was not going to survive this event and so i had to deal with that and i had about a minute to think about that deal with that and so i talk about that in the book i talk about the peace that i had in that moment