I couldn't be myself and show... as much of myself as I could there's a sense of invisibility when you're gay because you don't wanna step out you don't wanna show too much, not everybody is [...] on Glee all my friends from my catholic elementary school got to go to an all girls catholic high school but my mother wouldn't let me go, she wanted me to go to a public school, so that I'd be around boys the name of the game was I guess to fit in when it got thought I put on a show every time I had to go on a field or on the cord I was felt ostracized from the rest of the team all of the people on the stand were like dike, lesbo and get off the field 